i will rather drug my life to get kill,

SCREWED THE DAYS OF THIS WEEK! _l_ i swear whatever good things i did didnt come in return! D: i totally dont understand why i went to believe you when you told me things that night. i feel fucking stupid, like i am a joke to you. to actually believe what you said. you totally just side your girl den me?! what posion did she put in you. i guess, nothing works out now. totally spoil our relationship. I HATE YOU, YOU HATE ME. i cant say anything. i did say that i respect your decision on who you want to be with buy i never say i wont hate that girl. DONT BLAME IT ON ME, you find this trouble yourself. you totally change, and i feel like i totally dont understand and feel about you. maybe that is a good thing to start of by forgetting you. but if one day you would come running back to me, i would hold on to you still. (maybe not, anymore. after this incident!) i put my trust in you and you fucking just broke my trust! I HATE YOU TO THE MAX. you knew i hate people who break my trust, yet you do things and hurt me. FUCK OFF lah, i have nothing to say about you. hope my sucky feelings end soon thanks to you! (not pushing all the blames to you, but just to tell and explain why am i not at fault!) bet you must be that happy now to see me in this state, congratulation. you successfully did it. i am "PROUD" of you. GREAT THANKS UH!

i still love you like i always do,
but you change and my thinking change about you.
but i gotta say that
I STILL LOVE YOU DEEPLY! ♥

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will i feel your hug again?

IT'S A FRIDAY! weeeets, happy. but its getting nearer and nearer to o's and photo-shoot session! D: SCARED! ): wakaka, I MISS YOU suddenly! ): *cry! school today without my sister, if not i would be late! :D heh, bus to school, meet girl at the bus stop! heh, she miss the bus! so she took a cab! heh, but in the end she was there first! :D hahas, poor her. waste her money! :D hmmmmm, school. went through maths paper one. i scored 61 out of 80! HAPPY! but i have alot of careless mistakes! TSK! *Screwed paper, prelims, everything. had some poly-talk thingy! HEH, i am so gonna get into Ngee Ann! :D weeeets, ^^. lunch with girl, homed! :D shall prepare! :D update later! byyezzz.

i am happy, happy that you were there for me yesterday. happy that you were concern about me. you told me not to let my feelings fade, i promise. i swear i did love you more than i expected. but just to say thankyou for being there for me, greatly appreciated! ^^ thinking back about yesterday when he ask me to give him a chance. i didnt wanted to, but i was force to. i am sorry, be angry at me if you really cant take it. i dont know, screwed. how i wish you were there at night with me. so that you could scold him through the phone and tell him not to call. that was what i wish, but if it happen it will just be another fairy tale dream that i have get myself into! D: screaming for you yesterday, hoping you wouldnt leave me there alone. hoping you would call and you really did call. living a life full with regrets, i really dont know what to do? leaving with other girl, i will give you my blessing. CONTROL, i need to put a stop to it. what if you really throw me aside, and leave.? what should i do?! D:

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i will llook at you from far. ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND!
heh, study well alright! :D
loveyou. ♥

heyhey, went to school as usual. although to me everything seems screwed. ): had a great mid-autum festival yesterday. weeeeeets, took photo with friends, upload on facebook if i have time! :D HEH, kenneth came yesterday. stupid you, didnt tell me. your letter is at my house! *SCREWED YOU! -.- nevermind another time since you stay just a few blocks away! CHEERUP alright, LOVE.! ♥ home around 10plus - 11plus. HAH. almost late for school today. talk to Ms. Ng on the way, meet enzhao at the bus stop! wakaka, p.e was super boring. i should had just stay in class. had lessons and workshop! home after that, thought about many things. *SCREWED! homed, gonna bath and maybe relax awhile, having tuition later! YIPPPEEE! ^^v byezzzz. ♥

maybe things change, you have change.
i dont know why you ask for it?
maybe because you think that i dont like you,
maybe you think that my feelings fade.
but my truth is I DIDNT!
everything seems to go wrong in just that short while,
i respect your decision cause i knew this day would come
i have no rights to hold on to you now.
but i will watch you from far.
hope you find a better girl!
I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U! ♥

girl, dont be sad alright. i am fine too. :D everything revolve around you is bad maybe. but dont give up! i am always there, sorry i left today. really didnt have the mood. i dont want to spoil your day just because of some ridiculous things that happens and its right infront of me! i will be alright soon. love you, dearest! ♥

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EVERY LITTLE CHANGES

headed to school today. meet girl and Tes at the bus stop. walk to school, girl was sharing her problems with me! D: TSK! i am seriously not gonna let you work in pub! I DONT CARE! wakak, had science (chemistry/physic) paper one. i think i screwed it! OHNO, tomorrow = taking back of prelims! i am afraid i would flunk! *SCARED, WORRIED! wakaka, homed. meet finn at my house downstair. she came my house till 1pm. join me and kenneth for lunch! :D HAHA, meet cousin. went KTV! Weets, although i broke down into tears during the time i was at KTV, but i guess everything is worth it! :D maybe i aint that perfect in your life. i dont know? maybe is me who make your life in this mess, make your life so dam fuck up! I AM DEEPLY SORRY! ): homed, didnt have mood to go out. gonna do physic and use the computer. byeszzzz. shall end here! ♥

maybe things for you is different, tell me what to do now and than. guide me through so that i would know you're with me. i dont know what your thinking. i feel like a dam subsititue! sometimes i really dont know what to do when i am this state. thinking back of the past, when we started out. you were find before mixing with them, after that everything changes. IS NOT ME WHO CHANGE, BUT IS YOU WHO CHANGE MUCH.

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