♥, VIVIA-N วิเวียน!

2010-09-29T15:13:00.001+08:00

I HATE SHIRLEY!!!

you rip my heart out

2010-09-26T09:58:00.003+08:00

i will rather drug my life to get kill,

den to live in hurt in your hands.

SCREWED THE DAYS OF THIS WEEK! _l_ i swear whatever good things i did didnt come in return! D: i totally dont understand why i went to believe you when you told me things that night. i feel fucking stupid, like i am a joke to you. to actually believe what you said. you totally just side your girl den me?! what posion did she put in you. i guess, nothing works out now. totally spoil our relationship. I HATE YOU, YOU HATE ME. i cant say anything. i did say that i respect your decision on who you want to be with buy i never say i wont hate that girl. DONT BLAME IT ON ME, you find this trouble yourself. you totally change, and i feel like i totally dont understand and feel about you. maybe that is a good thing to start of by forgetting you. but if one day you would come running back to me, i would hold on to you still. (maybe not, anymore. after this incident!) i put my trust in you and you fucking just broke my trust! I HATE YOU TO THE MAX. you knew i hate people who break my trust, yet you do things and hurt me. FUCK OFF lah, i have nothing to say about you. hope my sucky feelings end soon thanks to you! (not pushing all the blames to you, but just to tell and explain why am i not at fault!) bet you must be that happy now to see me in this state, congratulation. you successfully did it. i am "PROUD" of you. GREAT THANKS UH!

i still love you like i always do,
but you change and my thinking change about you.
but i gotta say that
I STILL LOVE YOU DEEPLY! ♥

I WANNA HEAR

2010-09-24T14:10:00.002+08:00

nothing matters to me
only you can.

YOU ARE IMPORTANT!

will i feel your hug again?

IT'S A FRIDAY! weeeets, happy. but its getting nearer and nearer to o's and photo-shoot session! D: SCARED! ): wakaka, I MISS YOU suddenly! ): *cry! school today without my sister, if not i would be late! :D heh, bus to school, meet girl at the bus stop! heh, she miss the bus! so she took a cab! heh, but in the end she was there first! :D hahas, poor her. waste her money! :D hmmmmm, school. went through maths paper one. i scored 61 out of 80! HAPPY! but i have alot of careless mistakes! TSK! *Screwed paper, prelims, everything. had some poly-talk thingy! HEH, i am so gonna get into Ngee Ann! :D weeeets, ^^. lunch with girl, homed! :D shall prepare! :D update later! byyezzz.

i am happy, happy that you were there for me yesterday. happy that you were concern about me. you told me not to let my feelings fade, i promise. i swear i did love you more than i expected. but just to say thankyou for being there for me, greatly appreciated! ^^ thinking back about yesterday when he ask me to give him a chance. i didnt wanted to, but i was force to. i am sorry, be angry at me if you really cant take it. i dont know, screwed. how i wish you were there at night with me. so that you could scold him through the phone and tell him not to call. that was what i wish, but if it happen it will just be another fairy tale dream that i have get myself into! D: screaming for you yesterday, hoping you wouldnt leave me there alone. hoping you would call and you really did call. living a life full with regrets, i really dont know what to do? leaving with other girl, i will give you my blessing. CONTROL, i need to put a stop to it. what if you really throw me aside, and leave.? what should i do?! D:

lets go back to where we are from the start

2010-09-23T15:45:00.002+08:00

i will llook at you from far. ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND!
heh, study well alright! :D
loveyou. ♥

heyhey, went to school as usual. although to me everything seems screwed. ): had a great mid-autum festival yesterday. weeeeeets, took photo with friends, upload on facebook if i have time! :D HEH, kenneth came yesterday. stupid you, didnt tell me. your letter is at my house! *SCREWED YOU! -.- nevermind another time since you stay just a few blocks away! CHEERUP alright, LOVE.! ♥ home around 10plus - 11plus. HAH. almost late for school today. talk to Ms. Ng on the way, meet enzhao at the bus stop! wakaka, p.e was super boring. i should had just stay in class. had lessons and workshop! home after that, thought about many things. *SCREWED! homed, gonna bath and maybe relax awhile, having tuition later! YIPPPEEE! ^^v byezzzz. ♥

maybe things change, you have change.
i dont know why you ask for it?
maybe because you think that i dont like you,
maybe you think that my feelings fade.
but my truth is I DIDNT!
everything seems to go wrong in just that short while,
i respect your decision cause i knew this day would come
i have no rights to hold on to you now.
but i will watch you from far.
hope you find a better girl!
I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U! ♥

girl, dont be sad alright. i am fine too. :D everything revolve around you is bad maybe. but dont give up! i am always there, sorry i left today. really didnt have the mood. i dont want to spoil your day just because of some ridiculous things that happens and its right infront of me! i will be alright soon. love you, dearest! ♥

remember this

2010-09-20T19:07:00.002+08:00

EVERY LITTLE CHANGES

headed to school today. meet girl and Tes at the bus stop. walk to school, girl was sharing her problems with me! D: TSK! i am seriously not gonna let you work in pub! I DONT CARE! wakak, had science (chemistry/physic) paper one. i think i screwed it! OHNO, tomorrow = taking back of prelims! i am afraid i would flunk! *SCARED, WORRIED! wakaka, homed. meet finn at my house downstair. she came my house till 1pm. join me and kenneth for lunch! :D HAHA, meet cousin. went KTV! Weets, although i broke down into tears during the time i was at KTV, but i guess everything is worth it! :D maybe i aint that perfect in your life. i dont know? maybe is me who make your life in this mess, make your life so dam fuck up! I AM DEEPLY SORRY! ): homed, didnt have mood to go out. gonna do physic and use the computer. byeszzzz. shall end here! ♥

maybe things for you is different, tell me what to do now and than. guide me through so that i would know you're with me. i dont know what your thinking. i feel like a dam subsititue! sometimes i really dont know what to do when i am this state. thinking back of the past, when we started out. you were find before mixing with them, after that everything changes. IS NOT ME WHO CHANGE, BUT IS YOU WHO CHANGE MUCH.

it is you that i adore

2010-09-19T10:04:00.004+08:00

your love is fading soon, i guess. ♥

yesterday, went to church by cab with jingyi and finn! :D weeets, were late for service! D: wakaka, CONGRATES TO THOSE WHO WERE PROMOTED! (: heh, waited for my sister to come in church. before heading out to the opposite site to play. while waiting, celebrate yihyang belated birthday! weeeheee~ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! ♥ walk across the road, had a great time playing all the games :D hehe, super funnny uh yonglee.! STUPID EH YOU! wakakakakak~ darren also! D: chicken mac-nugget! :D weeeets. bus homed with sister, audrey and minghui! :D hahas, (: smile. baby dad called today, and i dont know what to say! D: wakaka. homed, tired! :D

today, had a weirdest dream ever! dreamt that i was being kipnap! D: OHMYGOSH, super scary can! D: SUCK TO THE MAX! SCARED! ): i miss you, baby! was wishing you would be there beside me! D: woke up by my sister just to try her food! RETARDED. but actually it was really nice. HAHAS, MY FUTURE HOUSEWIFE SISTER! :D heh, gonna go for buffet with family later, alright. shall end here. i will prepare for tuition at night! :D BYESZZZZ. ♥

you are my super number 1

2010-09-17T17:07:00.002+08:00

a song that can bring
a whole loads of memories back.

you bring me life!

HEYHEY, woke up at around 8plus going 9am today! and i receive 10 text and a miss call in the morning! :D hahas, smile. replied text, and got ready to go out of house. daddy is sick, so am i! D: random~ i feel like i am turning les! OMG, shytt. NONO! okay wait, get back to topic! heh wakaka, ): baby's daddy called me yesterday. but i slept! D: ops, yeah! baby is homed! ^^v heh, happy! :D ask baby's dad to help me ask baby if he wants to go to church tml! baby's dad replied say he would call me! D: *WINKS. happy to the max. raining so dam heavily today. cab to school, grandma send me to school first before heading to cousin house! :D weeets, waited for tes at foyer. HAHAS. she told me she is drench! D: ohno, gonna fall sick soon too lah, better not uh! :D went up to hall first cause she waiting for girl! :D she came, but no sight of girl! ): SADSAD! she told me girl wasnt coming! rain was super heavy! D: sobsob. Girlgirl never tell me! ): sad, moodless! had chinese paper 2, omg. it totally suck to the max uh! dont even have a proper mindset to go in the hall! D: FREAK! *screwed everything! went cousin's house after that, played computer and had a great time with them. drizzling, homed with grandpa. grandma went home to cook for my poor sick daddy! ): cab homed with grandpa, thanks to the bus! have to wait for 19mins! D: wakaka, ): super lazy so took cab! :) heh, text sister. baby didnt call yet. what is he doing???!!! D: screwed you! ): I MISS YOU! stupid connection of the internet is so sucky today! D: *SCREWED INTERNET! alright shall stop here and continue doing chemistry paper 1 den! :D weeeets, aiming to finish the whole TYS of paper 1 for chemistry and physic! *yes! i can do it de! :D tuition on sunday! :D gonna clear my doubts! :D JIAYOU, you can do it! :D hope baby call later on and i will pick up! D: byyeeezzz. ♥

babygirl, you are still super impportant to me okay! D: i dont know, super scared you anyhow think also! you didnt tell me you wont sitting for the paper!!! i was like thinking why you didnt tell me, i tot you were gonna like angry with me, these days i never accompany you! D: SORRY! you need me there i will still be there alright girl! i am sorry to abandon you this few days. ops, i just went to study! :D hope we wont drift! D: SORRY GIRL! I LOVE YOU! ♥

shirley, my tiny little cutie shirley uh shirley! :D heh, dont be sad. i know you can get yourself out of this mess. if you need me i'm there for you! maybe not physically there uh. i am just a phone call away if you need me uh! :D START LEARNING HOW TO SMILE! :D heh, i love you, i dont want see you sad the next time i see you alright! SMILEY! *my symbol! loves! ♥

2010-09-16T19:17:00.004+08:00

your heart is my soul!

HAD CHEMISTRY PAPER TODAY! D; screwed chemistry! D: thanks to chemistry i have dam no mood to post! D: alright, shall post more tomorrow! :D hope chinese will be easy! D: SCREWED YOU, YOU ASS.! byeezzzz.

DONT LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE WHEN THEY DID WELL. YOU ARE JUST DAM JEALOUS THEY GOT GOOD GRADES AND YOU DONT HAVE BITCH! :D

LOVE IS A GAMBLE

2010-09-15T21:06:00.004+08:00

YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I BREATE!

heyhey, finally finish POA paper and chinese paper one! GOSH, i think i will screwed chinese. my mind totally went blank! D: shyttt! ): woke up at 6plus today, sister woke me up. went school with her, send her to school though! :D hahas, LOL. forgot to bring many things out like dictionary, money etc. went mac to wait for wifey! hahas, she change the time to 8am so i had to wait! :D heh, but is worth it! :D she came, ate breakfast. study awhile. the sky turn grey and is like gonna rain! TSK, pack and leave, was drizziling already! walked faster and it started to pour so we ran to the bus stop! thinking to take cab but no sign of any! :D took 186 to school, went to school bus stop and took a cab! I KNOW ITS RETARDED, BUT IS LIKE SUPER COLD AND I'M DRENCH! D: wakaka, no jacket! -.- school, find teacher. had exam. didnt really talk much to girl today! I'M SORRY! yipppee, first time manage to balance my balance sheet figure! exam finish at 5plus. went dawson to eat. SUPER HUNGRY! :D thinking about food during POA! homed, tuition! gonna sleep later abit tonight! shall end here, byyeezzzz. ♥

NOTHING CHANGE, MY FEELINGS DIDNT CHANGE
I STILL LOVE YOU LIKE I ALWAYS DO!

you love my heart

2010-09-14T14:32:00.005+08:00

The cause of true love,
never did run smooth

YOZZZ, woke up at 6.30am today although i slept like super early the day before! almost late for school today. wonder what will happen if i'm late. stupid, never want to think of it! :D HAHA, it's been long since i took a bus. guess what, i saw MS NG! :D ohmy~ it's really long since i saw her again, and she told me a shocking news! HEH, but not gonna say! :D only girl knows! *SECRET! girl meet me at the bus stop. (: had maths paper 2 today. ohmy, FREAK~ i didnt finish whatever i am suppose to finish. alamak, screwed the time! it's two an a half hour paper, but it's seems so short! D: I WANT MORE TIME SO THAT I COULD FINISH IT! ): wakaka, ate with girl, T in school. K came and find us after that. left with K , while T and girl go staff room! D: i'm sorry girl, i pangseh you! I FEEL BAD! ): bus homed, suppose to go out and study with K and meet my baobei finn at chinatown! but in the end, everything cancel! ):
i'm so dam sorry baobei! D: I MISS YOU, another day k! maybe with your boyfriend there bah! :D i think he would want join too! (:
MISS MY BOYFRIEND MUCH, ♥ . weeeets, talk to xiaoace on facebook. saw his blog. HAHAS, super funny. pon class somemore. see almost kena caught! LAUGHS. haolah, dont bully you. later you say i bullier! D: wakaka, erm. dont sad already! i really dont know what to say after reading your blog! ): DONT SAD AND SMILE YEAH! ^^ currently talking to baby on msn, weeets. HAPPY! :) shall end here, BYEEZZZZ...

BABY,I LOVE YOU! ♥

is you that matters

2010-09-09T13:44:00.003+08:00

a promise means everything, but once it;s broken it means nothing!

HEYHEY, its being super duper long since i last post anything on my blog! went to catch a movie with siwei and calvin yesterday! "HAUNTED CHANGI" freak, i totally freak out in the show! D: TSK! siwei send me home,thankyou stupidpig! ♥ saw audrey and her friends at vivo too! :D weeets, long time never see her liao! :D wakakakak, woke up early today! hmmm, is 9am counted early or late!? wakakakak, i think baby is still asleep! D: idk, no calls and nothing. hmmm, idk whats going on now?! I FEEL LIKE I AM LOST! can someone bring me out of my lost-ness. I MISS GIRL! )': I FEEL LIKE I AM A FOOL WITHOUT HER! D; GIRL , WHERE YOU?! opps, hahhas. i know there isnt such word but idk how to phrase it, cant think it in a proper phrasing! D: wakakkaka. having tuition later and meeting deanna ♥ at tiong with my sister for steamboat. DEANNA ASK FOR IT, SO I PEI HER. i am not a pig hor! :D hahahs. alright, shall end here. byebyezzz. ♥
BABY, ILY! ♥

♥.♥

2010-09-05T13:39:00.003+08:00

NO PHOTOS TODAY.
currently using my sister desk-top! stupid, worse den my lappy. at least my lappy connect faster and wont be as lag as this stupid computer. fell sick for 2 days with fever. ): wakakka, sorry baby, i didnt answer your call. my head super pain so i went to sleep!!! )': heh, having tuition later! ): wakakak, sad life! nevermind, going eat medicine and go to sleep again! babgygirl text me! :D hahas, yipppee. i am feeling loads better. thanks for your concern! I LOVE YOU TTM! ♥
*FYI, i am not a pig! TSK!

shirley,
NOT SILLY LAH, dumbdumb. hahahahs. but you gave me that feeling mah! :D sorry uh! ): but i really tot of that eh, super sad lah! ): dont care, you better dont throw me aside! I WILL CRY FOR YOU TO SEE! :P heh, I LOVE YOU. ♥

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thick skin, thin heart

2010-09-02T09:51:00.002+08:00

I HAVE TO STOP! ):

heyhey, currently at home waiting for time to pass so that i could go to school. gonna meet my beloved 2girls at the bus stop. weehee~ bet i'm like gonna be late uh! :D hahas, miss them loads. gonna bath soon in 10mins time. OMG, science practical today for physic and chemistry. bet i'm gonna flunk it, i have no confident! ): wakaka, my goodfriend is sad yet i cant help by cheering my goodfriend up! ): I'M SUCH A FAILURE! D: sadded. currently talking to baby and goodfriend! :D weeets, i am hungry and i want to eat breakfast! :D but no ones home! ): wakakaka. heading to bath soon. maybe heading to vivo to study with wife again! :D post again soon, byeesszzz. ♥
BABY I LOVE YOU.♥

shirley,
but i miss talking to you.
tsk, you made me feel like you dont want talk to me anymore.
you are always there for me last time, );
WHAT ABOUT NOW?

you are my lovely sunshine

2010-08-30T19:58:00.003+08:00

SUNSHINE!

heyhey, had english paper today! ): so tired. but i slept the longest among the other day this month! :D WEEHEE~ went to school around 12plus. meet girl at the bus stop. went dawson to grab something to eat! :D HUNGRY, heh. bought tibits and snacks! :D wakaka, i miss my baby! D: text baby today~ heh, smart of him to use his friend's phone. saw deanna and tes at dawson. walked to school, went back to class. girl bought me a super HUGE eraser! weeeets, she is retarded! keep cursing my small eraser to go missing in my pencil case! ): HAD A FREAKING LONG EXAM FROM 1.30-5.40! ): phew, finally over for english. but i still have to study! ): cant wait to meet baby on wednesday! :D heh, LOVE YOU. went dawson with tes and yiying. ate something and a cup of ice cream. FULL! ): homed, bathed. my eyes are red again, wakakakka. i am gonna to sleep earlier today. tomorrow have school! (stupid girl pangseh me!) wakakak, byeeesss.

tes, i post already hor! :D see i so good. you say i immediately go home after bath post eh! :D hahahhas, faster thank me! :D joking. I LOVE YOU GIRL! :D

if my heart stop beating

2010-08-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

i wish i would be in that bride dress one day. ♥

school was normal, was late for school again! =.= sick and tired of being late. D: wakaka, ):
GIRL ♥ BOUGHT ME A NEW PINK POKA DOT WATER BOTTLE. & I ♥ IT TO THE MAX! :D weeeets, thanks girl, all the small little things you do that makes me touch! :D
had oral in the afternoon. I F.K SCREWED THE THING ALRIGHT! omg lah, stupid. )': bus homed, lightning and thunder! D: *scary! )': wakakaka, wish dear was here! D: But he will never be, wishful thinking! homed, bath. currently talking to DEAREST through msn! ♥ alright. i shall do work and talk to dearest! BYEEESSZZZZ. ♥

BABYBOY, i miss you more than you miss me alright! BLEAHS. :P hehe, although its been a week since i see you, but i believe that this will help to strengthen us together. your temper is getting bad to worse, tsk! I DONT LIKE! ): changechange! )': i have a super silly baby! butbut i still love you. maybe one day you will get sick and tired of me, i will leave once you can find someone better to replace me. I WONT BE YOUR BURDEN! but for now, you are mine ^^ heh, I LOVE YOU! ♥

If you dare to love, Don't be scare to hurt. Cos there' s no one completely perfect in this world. You have to adjust to each other first. Love is a mystery. Sometimes you win, sometimes you loose. As the sun will shine after rain, Love will be stronger after everything suits. ♥

SHIRLEY,
although i know you less than a month
but you are always there without fail so far
greatly appreciated.
thankyou , and i love you too. ♥

I'M LAZY

2010-08-22T21:58:00.004+08:00

THE WAY YOU SMILE AT ME.

HOMED > DOWNSTAIRS > HOMED!

*thanks to my sickness, although i recover. i would have gone to find baby today! ):

inhale love , exhale hate

2010-08-20T14:49:00.007+08:00

" chun ruk koon , poodchalat" ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DALSTON!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

DALSTON, ONE YEAR OLDER. MUST BE MORE MATURE ALRIGHT! (:

weeets, THAILAND WON BOTH FOR GUY & GIRL FOR BADMITON. weehee~ didnt wasted $30 just to get in for nothing! :D heh, OMG, P.POODCHALAT IS LIKE SUPER HOT! ♥ EXTREME HOT lah! i am turning to a stalker! woohoo~ totally just stalk him for 2 days lah. heh, I AM A STALKER! ♥ queue with weiling for like an hour just to watch the bamiiton match yesterday! :D did some survey, while waiting. wooots, manage to get tickets and everything. SUPER DUPER HAPPY yesterday! ♥ TODAY, raining in the morning! ): FREEZE, cold. take bus to school instead of car. wakakakak! ): super tired. was writting appreciation letter when i got home yesterday! ^^ didnt have any lesson except for geography! :D SUPER SLACK TODAY! somemore best time to sleep! hahas, went home after geography, dead tired. GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO ARE TAKING TODAY'S ORAL! (: i want to take a nap! :D heh, byeeezzz. ♥

love is the person you think about
when your listening to a sad song! ♥

it's been awhile

2010-08-17T17:34:00.006+08:00

wonder rather den doubt.
i dont want it just to be
another beautiful memory!

I TOOK A THOUSAND PICTURES OF YOU WHEN I'M WITH YOU! ♥

SHIRLEY, YOU ARE SUPER ~~SILLY~~!
but i love you still! ♥

HI BLOG :B
was late for school today by that freaking 1 minute! ): BUSTARDED! D: nevermind, pei girl late. AHAHAS, not only 2 of us uh, much from our class is late too! D: had to run around the field! FREAK THE MR.LIM LAH! i ran 5 rounds eh, bustarded. 3 rounds enough already uh. freak lah, make me sweat! ): up to class with girl, had social studies. super no mood to study at that time! ): I DONT WHY? )': had chemistry and geography was boring till i started to draw! ): felt so tired, sleep in POA class, mdm yani scolded me! ): (actually not really scold, ahhh. WHATEVER!) pon english and maths, went off with girl. she went find her boyfriend at home, her bus came! heading to bukit merah centre, bus there. sorry vivien let your wait so long. saw her boyf, hahas. so funny! :D hmmmmm, I MISS MY BABY! ♥ eat, slack, study and play! THUNDER AND LIGHTENING hits, started to rain. freak. super cold, hope baby wont be feeling that cold uh?! ): homed around 5plus, dead tired. i will try to sleep early today. too tired to think, everything just hit me today again! ): tomorrow will be a super long day uh! ): alrights, i shall stop here. post again if i feel like it or i am too bored too! byesszzz. ♥

maybe now isnt the right time to ask, you could find a better person than me. i aint the right one for you. ): i am sorry, i have hurt you. SERIOUS, you are nice. that makes you easier to find another girl. but not me, i do not live in your life. i will just end up darkening your life. you told me you will wait. but i dont care, even if i broke off, you will be the last in my list. not first, REALLY! stop wasting your time on me, you can seriously find someone better. TRUST ME! but i am really sorry! ):

Baby, i will never take you for granted. i will hold you close & tight to my heart! because i would be afraid if one day i wake up, i realise you were gone. Whenever i close my eyes, i see you. sometimes Tears will start to flow, when i think about things, those times when you left me out there alone. If only i could see you 24/7, so i do not have to fight over my minds thinking of you, and the urge to call you. to prevent myself from my wild thinking! ): you are the one that can make me smile, you are the one that could make me sad for days! yeah, but was still happy that you text me today although it wasnt that long after all. you promise to go home early and call me till i sleep. hope you remember your promise! :D I LOVE YOU, ♥

Will never resist hugging from the back,
instead, turn around & kissed on the forehead & hugged even tighter.
You said "I would hold you on tightly, and never let you go."

BAD MOOD!

2010-08-16T15:55:00.005+08:00

everything changes, maybe even your heart too.

BAD BAD BAD BAD MOOD! ): My tummy is like freaking pain! ARGH! *stupid tummy to the max! ): school is like getting super boring now uh! ): SUCK! but at least i can go for YOG batmiton ( i think i soell correctly) ! saw ernest today, he came back for the course follow up! :D hahas, so cute lah. DAM FUNNY! at least i did laugh at the second! (: heh, homed. took 139 with eunice . vivien came up from her house bus stop! ): wait, suppose to be (: face. AHAHA, bus to interchange took 167 homed! vivien coming my house study! ): STUPID BENJAMIN, YOU BETTER BRING ME FOR THE MOVIE AND MY SHOPPING TRIP! CAUSE, I NEED IT RIGHT NOW! you asshole. you promise to be there for me de hor, ): I MISS MY DEAR... what should i do now!? super confuse?! shall stop here! byyezzz...

you make me wonder did you even really put your heart into this relationship! )': I SERIOUSLY TOTALLY DONT KNOW WHAT YOU ARE THINKING, you dont call me nor you text me. do you expect me to find out everything from your friends?! you once use brandon name to test out on me and ask me if i love you. my answer was i dont know i dont know! i want you to know the reason why i said this was because not i dont want, but i dont dare to. see what happens if i even put a tiny bit of love with you.? what if i put my wholeheart in, i bet i would feel like dying right now! ): (bet you must be thinking that i am dumb, too bad thats me. you can hate me, you can love me) it's up to you! since no calls, no texts, i just use this like an sms! i am going out with benjamin one of these days, i dont know when. maybe you read my blog, maybe you didnt?! i dont know if you do or is you who find out yourself! but i did say, so i will take it as you know it! is not that i want to go out with him, its just a movie, sometimes you really think too much. if you think that i am going out with him and you dont like it, den why you leave me there alone when i am down. YOU WERE NOT THERE AS YOU PROMISE TO BE THERE FOR ME! ): you dont tell me your problems and everything, i wouldnt know. you are keeping everything to yourself! be it in the end whether we are still together or not, i wouldnt want you to be like this. i ask you one question, DO YOU WANT TO FOLLOW IN YOUR FATHER'S FOOTSTEPS? (not trying to say your daddy but even he dont want you to become like that.) HE IS STILL YOUR DADDY OVERALL EH! plus, i wouldnt want you too! you said you would take care of me, so these is how you take care uh?! D: I DONT WANT THEN, I RATHER I TAKE CARE OF YOU. wouldnt it be better?! ): you know how many times have i being pestering your goodfriend about you, i dont even know if she is sick and tired of hearing it! ): she is always the one putting good remarks about you when you disappear, always the one cheering me up! you say "i love you", i am starting to doubt thats real. PROVE ME WRONG FROM NOW IF YOU THINK YOU MEANT IT FROM YOUR HEART! seriously not the first time shedding tears for you anymore uh! ): i dont want live my life this way with you! ): I DONT WANT TO! i want you to tell me, from now, what should i do! D: MY MIND IS BLANK!

BABY, I LOVE YOU ♥

2010-08-12T19:21:00.004+08:00

SHINEE! ♥♥♥

I FEEL SO STRESS UP BY EVERYTHING! D:

HOMED - SCHOOL - VIVO - HOMED!
girl brought me out today! cause didnt had the mood to do anything. TSK, feel so fcuk up with myself. whats going on! WHAT ON EARTH DO I WANT NOW, i myself also dont know!! (he is back, why are you still like this?) sadded, waited for your reply like for centuries, but so slow! ): i dont like, it mades me feel like you didnt wanted to talk to me! ): [i know i am thinking too much, but i just cant help it!] went shopping to de-stress! bought a top, a camera and an ahlapbet! ): I SWEAR I LOVE THAT ALHAPBET! ♥ heh, girl right! :D HAHAS, homed. shirley let me watch a stupid viedo. OMG, dam funny! (: she thinks i am stupid, but i aint lor. not as dumb as her! hahahs! i shall stop here to prevent myself from being bad mood at this point of time, I JUST HAD A GREAT LAUGH! (: byeezz. ♥

baby, ♥
go home early. you didnt sleep well already. i dont want you to fall sick. ): i want you stay healthy! i miss your smile, i miss your hug! ): so you must not fall sick uh! ): although if you do i would still get to see you but, i dont care. i want you to be healthy! :D sleep more alright! I LOVE YOU! && i aint silly! ♥

I AM A GREAT FAILURE

2010-08-11T18:50:00.004+08:00

I AM A FAILURE, NOT YOU!

suppose to ask girl to help me post today de, but since i can use i dont trouble her! D: it has been a disater this 3days. everything just sucks when you arent there for me. ): i cried and you wont there, WHERE DID YOU GO?! ): life sucks till at this point of time, i dont know what is plan for me now. I AM STUCK, I JUST CANT SEEMS TO MOVE ON. girl kinda got irritated by me today. keep dropping things here and there! ): I DONT KNOW WHY! ever since you disappear, bad things happen! ): although i am not sure whether you remember my blog link or anything. but i seriously have many many things i want to say. but i dont know how say it now. i am sorry for troubling shirley this few days! REAL SORRY, plus i aint dumb or silly! ): bet my girl is gonna keep me under "provation"! you called but i said i didnt wanted to talk to you cause i really dont know what to say, i feel so F. UP by everything. at that moment when girl left i really tear AGAIN! D: i dont know, i dont how i survive if i didnt have girl! ): I MISS YOU, i am still the one i use to be. nothing change about me. is not that i dont want talk to you, just that i dont know what to say. ): i dont want it to happen again, I DONT WANT. no more another time , REALLY! your daddy did everything for your sake. i am not gonna scold you or blame you. butbut you must know that everyone is FREAKING worried about you, you know that!!! D: TSK, do you even know how it feels? stand in my position, you will know. 3days without a call or information. i told S that i want you back safe, no matter who you end up with. I DONT CARE, just want you back safe! THATS ALL, i dont know whats on your mind, never tell me about your troubles, do you even treat me as yours or just toying my feeling. I REALLY DONT KNOW THAT ANSWER. i only know i did all the things that i can do to be your girl! ): i dont care if you love me now or what, at least i heard your voice, and know you are safe! although you change, i still miss the old you. I CANT BE AS HAPPY AS BEFORE, and i dont want to be. people sometimes just say why am i like this and not taking care of you and everything. i dont know, is not that i dont want to take care of you. I CANT EVEN CARE FOR MYSELF, my girl have to even care for me! ): i dont want to create anymore troubles. i once said "i dont want him to go to the outside world, cause i dont want you to be hurt! its scary out there, i dont want you to get out there to be in danger! " DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW WORRIED WAS I AT THAT POINT OF TIME!!! ): keeping all the negative things behind. i practically slept for less den 20 hours altogether for the pass 3days! thanking people whom are there to talk to me till i could sleep well! D: i really wish you would go back to school. the future of your life is in your hands, not your daddy nor mine! i would wish i could go to the extra mile to help you. but i really cant, i encourage you to go back, you dont want. everything needs education now, go back to school. I CAN HELP YOU WITH THE WORKS YOU NEED TO CATCH UP WITH THEM! D: i really miss you, )': but i lastly still want tell you that i still love you like before, ♥ ! but my life is in a mess now, i want you to be by myside now, comforting me, telling me your troubles. I WANT TO KNOW! ): I AM YOUR GIRL!!! i dont want it to be this way, hope you really understand! i dont want to tear anymore, i really gonna faint anytime soon! D: you were so cold to me, and i miss the chance of talking to you on msn to ask you to see my blog. will there be another chance of seeing you read it, i am worried that your daddy might... butbut, i dont dare call you as you may not want talk to me! HOW? i dont want leave you there like this now!!! or maybe you dont even need me to be there even if i want to! TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT?! i cant read minds? i aint God! ): sobsob! ): I LOVE YOU STILL! ♥

in all my life
you are the first to make me feel this pain
as you are special in your ways!

THE DAY TO REMEMBER ♥

2010-08-03T21:02:00.002+08:00

MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE! ♥

MY SWEETEST DAY! ♥

HEYYOZZZZ. i am too tired to post a longer post. my eyes are like bloody RED again! ): i dont know what is happening! D: SOBSOB! hmmm.. today was alright, and a day worth remembering! had, fun today although my eyes were like troubling me!
HOME ~ SCHOOL ~ VIVO ~ HOME!
currently studying geography and posting! omg, i dont feel like studying now! ): CANNOT, I NEED MOTIVATION! more and more before i start deproving again! D:

BABYGIRL!
you must stay strong, dont fall and dont cry! i will try to catch you when you fall! (HUGS) hope you feel better after it! i dont know if you are starting to regret but i hope you wont! i let you be with him is because he could make you smile and that will make you look more cheerful, dont like that uh! our anniversary is coming! ): i want and i hope to see you smile again! i dont want see you in this state, i dont want! D: hais, you still have me girl. although i cant replace him but, at least i not as bad as him uh! :D heh, i love you like he always do! ♥

i want you
thats why i need to study

sweetestloves ♥

2010-08-02T19:47:00.003+08:00

CAUSE I LOVE YOU! ♥

LEE TAEMIN! ♥

yoozzz, its been a day since i post! (: SMILE, I MISS BLOGGING! went to school today, super cold in the morning! D: brought jacket cause first lesson was poa! mdm yani say that our paper 2 were like "shit" i think, if i didnt hear wrongly! D: assembly, *hoping i could see "you" today! keep telling girl and T that i miss you! although you did not know! :D heh, OMG! i am crazy over you leh! ): HOWHOWHOW? i will try to cut down! ): (i dont think i can!) hmmm, went off to cck to meet jie, waited for her at the bus stop and went to cck inter-change to meet junjie and jie's boyfriend! weeeets, i have a good sense of direction today! (super excited to see him at that point of time! ) hahas, went woodlands, jie pierce her ears there! ): went typ after that. waited for benedict and his friends to pick me up from there. train to cityhall with benedict, his friend left us at typ library. benedict send me to the cityhall bus stop and left! :D took 197 homed, talked to junjie on the phone! :D hahas, LOLS. he is super dumb, so cute uh! :D smile! ♥ homed, bathed. gonna study now! (: shall stop here, byeeessszzz! ♥

i like it when you smile at me
i like it when you act stupid
i like it when you make me laugh with your jokes
i like it when you talk to me
i like it when you wish me goodnight
I like it when you randomly divert from the topic we were at
i like it when you always bring me out no matter what
oh yes, and i love everything about you.
My doubts are finally starting to dissolve.
Thank you, ♥

with you that matters

2010-07-31T23:00:00.002+08:00

VINTAGEEE! ♥

I MET 3 NEW FANTASTIC FRIENDS! ♥

had a super long day today, tomorrow would be a long day too! argh, i shall go study awhile and then take a good rest now! NIGHTS PEEPS, SWEETEST DREAM! ♥

BABYGIRL:
girl, i hope you would be happy with him now and then! he better dont bully you or make you cry! he do, i kill him! ): i dont want you to be unhappy alright! :D smile! hope you 2 last, and now i have an official daddy! :D heh, dont forget about me okay! ): you still have me to take care of! D: i still need you! ♥

HUIJIA:
babe, i am still getting to know you more day by day! and i know most of your stories! i am glad you were willing to share it with me! although i dont really cant understand how it feels to be in your situation, remember, i am always there for you! :D drop me a phone call or text i would reply you! thankyou for trusting me and everything! i really am glad to have you as a close friend! i love you!♥
*ops, i am talking to your cousin, TT! :D heh, but i will beware! :D

MY LIFE WITH YOU

2010-07-30T20:26:00.013+08:00

THE PICTURE SPEAKS A THOUSAND WORD! ♥

I LOVE YOUUU! ♥

IT'S FRIDAY!
i'm having friday blueezz i bet! :D *screwed! yipppee, gonna study now! shall post soon! :D byeees, ♥

BABYGIRL,
thankyou for pei-ing me high an low just to find the flea market although in the end there isnt any! THANKYOU! ♥ i am like so touch by it lah, although like friends back out at the very last moment, you are always standing in the gap for me! :D I LOVE YOU, ♥. i had fun with you too. thanks for making my friday worthwhile!

I♥YOU

2010-07-29T18:37:00.002+08:00

i am the author of my life,
unfortunately,
i am writing in pen,
and i cant erase my mistakes

ALL ABOUT LOVING YOU! ♥

heyheyz, ♥. woke up at 6am today! :D WAS SUPER EARLY TODAY! idk why also! :D stupid sister, she wore my p.e pants to sleep and i cant find it therefore i cant go for p.e! ): TSK! *Screwed you!

SPOIL MY MOOD FOR THE DAY ALREADY LAH!

headed to school, W wasnt there uh. instead girl was there first! :D weeets, ♥! told girl about my sister wearing my p..e pants! :D goodness, thank god i have her! LOVEYOU! ♥ waited to T & D as W would be later than usual. walked in to school, stupid! today so dam hot, somemore assembly in the parade square! D: wakakaka, had p.e after that! stupid mr.kingkong made me run around the parade quare for like 3 rounds, although its nothing, but i dont want to sweat while i am like wearing school uni! FREAK him lah! ): another person who spoils my mood! D: lessons continue till 3pm today! skip chinese lesson and walk out of school with girl and W to the bus stop. :D W stop at the bus-stop outside dawson, while me and girl cross to the opposite side to take bus! WEEEHEEE~ my bus came first, took 33 to queensway shopping centre to meet finn. saw her while i was gonna cross the traffic light! :D went to pierce tragus today! OMG, it's so pretty! ♥ i love it, but super pain! ): went anchor point after that, find my long-lost preciousgirl! :D *HAPPY, i saw her! :D took 2 pictures with her! :D LOLS, i am super retarded. went to get bubble tea and maggi after that! d: i should stop eating maggi, it's so unhealthy lah plusplus i have been eating for the pass few days! ): *SCREWED! super unhealthy! D: walked to the bus stop with finn, 14 came and she left. waited for bus to come. took 196 homed, saw leroy! :D hahas, he is super cute in spectacles uh! :D HEH, ♥ . homed, bathed! (smell nice!) gonna study geogarphy and do chemistry now! :D shall end here! byes, ♥!

you only knew all about her,
what about me?

♥

2010-07-28T18:56:00.005+08:00

i may not be perfect, but i am still awesome! ♥

heyhey, woke up at 6am today BY MYSELF! heh, finally lah. that is like because i was super tired yesterday and slept at 10pm! :D HAHAS, but i still left late from home! reach bus stop at 7am sharp. thought i was late, but i saw luvena! (still have the mentality i was late) bus cam at around 7.10am! STUPID, saw jarren and weilin in the bus! *phew, luckily is the bus that came late lah! TSK! scare me loh, smiley! walked to school with classmates! had assembly in the hall! (: heh, cold! sky was so gray uh! went back to class after silent reading! D: girl slept in class while i did my work!

I AM A SUPER GOOD GIRL! ♥

had poa after recess, got back paper one! SCREWED! i only like get 25/40 and i am aming for A1, sucks lah! ): I NEED TO BUCK UP MORE ON THEORY! D: lesson till 3.30pm, went out of school to meet baobei finn! LOLS, went dawson eat maggi and chit-chat! :D did homework at koufu. so guai right! :D homed with finn, took 139 with her. waited for 14 with her after that and i took 147 homed! :D gonna bath, meeting her again tomorrow! ♥ shall end here, byesbyes. ♥

all i know is that
you are always thinking about her!

Dear Diary,

2010-07-27T16:57:00.003+08:00

i would choose to love you then to hate you. ♥

YOYOYOYOZ... woke up at 6.10am today! :D heh, had a worse sleep yesterday. not because of nightmares. BUT because of my sore eyes! D: wakakak, )': went to school with it too, was drizziling in the morning. D: went to the bus stop with sister and waited for bus. took 961 with her, heh. saw en zhao in the bus! (: took 139 after that with him. saw crystal! :D heh, she have super heavy eye bag uh! *MUST SLEEEP EARLY! :D hmmm, school per normal. didnt talk much to girl today! DEANNA B. has turn to my mummy! :d haha, LOLS. she is super cute uh! :D heh, had mock exam today for maths! D: FREAK, I THINK SO MUCH TODAY! GREAT BIG THANKS TO THE MATHS PAPER! D: it's a killer paper. suppose to and wanted to finish, but didnt! ): homed, suppose to go to the doctor. but in the end, i lazy to go. find 101 excuses not to! :D i hope it will be fine tomorrow! alright, i shall stop here and rest my pathetic eyes! ): byes ♥.

BABYGIRL,
i know you are pissed today. yet i didnt pei you. like for luch and everything. i am sorry, ): after seeing you like this yet i still never pei you, I WAS STUPID! i also dont know why i didnt wanted to go down, maybe wasnt really hungry or anything. i dont know what you are thinking, maybe (-) thoughts about me? i really dont know, but i want to tell you that i am really still there for you, SERIOUSLY & IT'S TRUE, with no broken promises.! and i realize that our next anniversary is coming! :D where do you want to go? must start planning! :D heh, i am starting to know you more each anniversary! *HAPPY! hope you are fine with him after all, i wont object with you being with him, but i will be sad if he turns your life upside down! I LOVE YOU, ♥!

what if i said i love you,
but it actually turns out that you dont love me?

sore eyes

2010-07-26T19:18:00.004+08:00

we were meant for each other
but you didnt accept the fact
and you left me there hanging all alone!

it's you that makes me complete! ♥

SHOULD I CLOSE DOWN MY BLOG??? ):
- nothing much to post, was out today! ENJOY, but wasnt the day! -

2010-07-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

when i met you, i fell in ♥ with you!

nothing but only you! ♥

ANNYEONGHASEYO! ♥ woke up at 7plus am today! took 196 with aunty to raffles place there to excerise while i study! :D heh, took MRT to tiong and took 16 to bukit merah interchange! weeets, when to cut my hair today! it look screwed, but i love it! it's not gonna irritate my eyes anymore although it looks weird! aunty perm her hair while i went off after cutting my hair to meet finn and jack at tiong bahru plaza to eat! OMG, super hunry! ate rahja inn spend like $20++ dollars there uh! :D took bus 16 to orchard to meet huijia! meet huijia at takashimaya! weehheee~ went to cine. to catch a movie " THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE"! omgomg, the show is super cool & nice lah! I WISHED I COULD HAVE THEIR POWER! ♥ HEH, went to the foodcourt downstairs and teach huijia a few POA questions. BUT before that i got a new ribbon rubber band while huijia got a new pencilcase! (: weeets! glady hope that i dont teach her the wrong things uh! D: if not it would be BAD! wakakkaka, )': went ION to walked around! :D heh, got a pencil and a book for art box! :D hehe, vivien, finn, jack, my sister and vivien brother came to find me before huijia leave! ): awwww, sadded. didnt shop much with her today! )': nevermind, next sunday! ♥ went taka to eat at KFC. shared food with some of them and went home after a while! all went seperate ways! ): BUT I ENJOY TODAY VERY MUCH! bus-ed home! phew, drop dead tired. i guess i better do sleep early today uh!

NIGHTS NIGHTS!
SWEET DREAMS! ♥

normal life
normal things
all i want is YOU

over my dead wishes

2010-07-24T21:19:00.006+08:00

FATE BROUGHT US TOGETHER! ♥

EE-LL-OO-SS! ♥ woke up at around 7am today! had to go school for POA mock paper 2! D: (already flunk paper 1!) headed to cousin's house, cousin daddy sent me to school on the way! :D heh, GREAT BIG THANKS! weeeets, reached school, saw cameron! HAHAS, stalker sia, still say i stalk you! TSK!TSK! :D heh, studied with him while waiting gor T & girl to come! ♥ headed to AVT for mock paper! *screwed! the paper first question was already like so hard! FISH UH! i cant balance, omg! i am deproving eh! ): i need to motivate myself, OMG! D: wakakakakka, )': went dawson with girl & T after that. T left to meet her boyf, so left me and girl! bought cupnoodles to her house to eat! :D heh, first time going to her new house! :D heh, took 186 to her house! :D OMG, her house colour outside is like super retro orange! I LOVE IT, BUT I WISH IT WAS PINK! ♥ heh, went in her house, super messy. but not that messy as what she says! went in to her room, made the cup noodle, on the computer and everything! watch chucky(i think i spell correctly!) with girl! FREAK! SUPER FREAKY CAN! ): i am scared of dolls now, maybe not as scared as before but still. i have barbie at home! ): OMG, i must really stop thinking! homed and studied till 5plus. went out to meet cherlyn, liankiat and weiliang at plaza sing! :D heh, took 175 there. stupid bus came so long, went burger king find them. talk awhile, went depot to find chutze, bangkai, avison, favian, farhan and aldrich! HAHAS, played pool with them! super fun! ♥ weeeets, but i am like super lousy at it! ): homed, :D gonna bathed. shall stop here and post tomorrow! byesss ♥

i was thinking in the bus,
thinking really hard,
whether am i fated to see you again,
by conincidence without texting,
i really did saw you
but i guess when you see me
it is just nothing,
cause i am USELESS!

RAININGLOVE

2010-07-22T19:42:00.005+08:00

I AM PROUDLY GLAD TO HAVE THEM AS MY GIRLFRIENDS!♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY, JIEXIANG! ♥
hope you two have a super great birthday alright! must enjoy eh! one year older means more mature! :D heh, thankyou for being such a good friend to me! i ♥ you guys much! enjoy, and happy birthday again! :D

HELLOS, raining heavily today that my daddy have to send me to school! :D super tired uh, i dunno why. although i sleep like super early last night! tsk! headed to my sister school then to mine! texttext on the way to keep myself awake! meet deanna.t in school! heh, she showed me the umbrella and i was like bleahs, too bad! :D heh, smiley. had assembly in class today. but no p.e lesson, went down to play tabletennis! SO FUN! :D heh, had poa test after that! i screwed the paper! FCUK! ): i must work harder for paper 2 lah! tsktsk! * screwed the paper! huijia screwed it too! D: nevermind, we will work hard for it! :D wakakak, lesson till 3.30pm! went for stem programme, left after girl and t finish their test! went dawson with girl, t and wanzhen! :D heh, ate waffle with wanzhen! :D waited for t to finish eating. saw deanna and adel! :D heh, after that jess and yiying! weeeheee~ walked to the ops. bus stop take bus, took 64 with wanzhen, change to 147 and homed! :D gonna play audition now, post again soon! ♥

I AM A SUPER GOOD GIRL TODAY! ♥

SORRY FOR EVERYTHING , C! ♥

L-O-V-E, LOVE

2010-07-21T19:14:00.012+08:00

OUR BEAUTIFUL LOVESTORY! ♥

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY! ♥

todays will be photos, i shall post a proper post tomorrow yeah! :D i am super tired now! D: * screwed me! ): alright, LOVE! ♥

without you

2010-07-20T16:58:00.002+08:00

you gave me your all, for all of me

HELLOS! ♥ heh, woke up at 6am, greatest thanks to my grandmother! :D she save my life from being late AGAIN! tsk, phew! walked to bus stop with sister, saw jonathan! :D heh, took bus with ruiyi, and met weilin at 139 bus stop. saw weilun in the 139 bus, off to school! happily texting! :D heh, meet W at the bus stop, talk to her till T & D came! GIRL came 1second late! headed in to school, chit-chat! had assembly! OMG, freaking HOT in the morning uh! D: sucks lah! had lesson! end school at 1.30pm due to O'LEVEL LISTENING COMPREHENSION! :D weeets, it's kinda quite easy uh! super happy! :D heh, walked off to the bus stop with T, W & GIRL! :D heh, girl left with "someone" & T went to find her boyf! talk to W about racial harmony tomorrow! :D OMGOMG! CANT WAIT FOR IT SERIOUSLY! :D super excited about it can! :D heh, went rachel's house , outside. cause her house got dog! pass me the coustumes! :D heh, OMG! THANKYOU FOR SAVING MY LIFE! HEH, YOU ARE SUPER SWEET UH! :D I LOVE YOU LAH,♥! heh, homed, bathed! gonna play audition and study for poa tomorrow too! D: ARGH! PISSED, byyees! ♥

it's all about you

because my love for you still remains

2010-07-19T17:38:00.002+08:00

YOUR ARE PART OF MY LIFE! [♥]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIYU! ♥
weeets, one year older eh! :D sorry uh, didnt bring your present today! i am super forgetful! i will bring it tomorrow! hope you enjoy your birthday today! heh, congrates for receiving your prize/colour awards! i ♥ you!

HEY-HEY! woke up at 6am today, drag time till 6.45am den leave house! wakakaka )': i was almost late, left home with sister. saw jonathan downstairs! :d bus to 139 bus stop, thank goodness the bus didnt left but it was gonna be like 7am and the bus isnt there! * screwwwed me for being scared! D: wakakak, bus came at 7am on the dot! :D reach school , waited for W, T, D & GIRL! ♥ weeeets, W reached first then GIRL reach! :D T & D came after awhile! hee, finally GIRL move house nearer to me! i got direct bus to her house now! no more MRT is needed to get to her house to visit her if i can! :D weeeheee~ i can go her house to use the things there too! :D hmmm, this prove that i could spent more quality time with my dear babygirl! :D weeehee~ studied, had assembly! the assembly took hell freaking long! decided to wear with the class malay coustume during racial harmony! heh, but will be brining clothes to change, have competition after that! :D it's at ngee ann! :D OMGOMG! heh, can get to see darren, alwin or audrey there maybe! :D had POA lesson after that, so going to my babygirl's house was cancel! ): but i will go there tomorrow! COMFIRM PLUS CHOP! :D i dont care already! tsk, stupid! *screwed, i need self-control! i did badly for my poa paper! screwed my paper uh! ): THE ONLY WORD I COULD SAY NOW IS : DISAPPOINTED! ate in school, took bus with weilun! heh, THANKYOU yeah! andand i like you eh, how can you say no one like you! TSK! ^^ heh, homed finally! alright, i shall go bath & i will try to post for my girl later!
*screwed, the internet connection that is so lag! ):

only you would understand me
yet you left

you're my sun shine

2010-07-18T12:37:00.024+08:00

close your eyes,
&& try to find my shaken heart!

i have been trying hard to find you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHSON! [♥]
one year older leh, means more mature! hahas, although you always reply super slow but i am glad to have you as a brother! heh, smile! hope you enjoy your birthday celebration today! * must take photos eh! heh, i want see! :D alright, hope all your wishes will come true yeah! love you!

heee-lll-ooosss...it's been 2days since i am posting again! :D heh, super tired this few days! have been going out lah! D: tsk, super tired! :D went many many places uh!
NORTH - SOUTH - EAST - WEST, ALL GO! :D {♥}
weeets, photos spammmmzzzz for the past 2 days! :D weeets! (: hmmmmm.... i am seriously
HAPPY TO THE MAX LAH!!! ^^
i'm smiling again! :D weeeeheeee~ i hope i can stay like this forever! :D alright, tired! i shall stop here and get a good rest yeah! LOVES!
*but i miss my girl & T! ):

i love you
& i will love you till the end of my wonders.
i started to miss the feeling.
i will now say "goodbye",
no matter how long,
we will always run to the end together.
but after all,
it's the world that we can meet again!

biggest dream ever

2010-07-16T14:09:00.003+08:00

♥
being with you every seconds of my life
is just made me feel happy

MY BIGGEST DREAM IS TO...

heyhey, went to school today! yipppee, friday is a rest day! OMG, heh. wake up at 6am today, left house with sister! saw alvina in the lift! walked to bus stop, took 147 to 139 bus stop. saw weilin! :d hahas, waited for 139 with her! hehe, meet W at the bus stop and waited fot T, D & GIRL! :d heh, headed to school after they reached, almost late lah! :D nevermind, use to it already! :D today school was fun! not really listening to teacher, and the weather was great! :D it rain! weeeets, cooling day yeah. did social studies essay in geography class while copying notes! :D POWERFUL, I CAN MULTI-TASK! :D heh, went off with girl to the bus-stop with J & G! :D heh, waited for bus, girl and G left. so left me and J, talk about girl stuff and everything. she so funny uh! :D heh, homed, bath-ed! heading out soon! :D
GIRL TOLD ME NOT TO BE LATE! WEEETS, SO SWEET OF HER!
I ♥ YOU!
alright, i shall end here and get ready! :D

&& sorry T for not going to the movie with you! ): sorry, i love you still! :D

SMILEY

2010-07-15T19:44:00.002+08:00

i just smiled! [♥]

HELLOS, woke up at 6am today! weeeets, stupid girl never go school today! met alvina at our house downstair. walked to the bus stop with sister and alvina! OMG, super long never see her! my bus came and i left, super lucky that i am not late! D: meet W at the bus stop, waited for T & D! :D heh, walked in to school with them. today lesson was alright! OMG, p.e!! i lost 4 kg! :D stupid but i dont look like i lost! ): *screwwed it! had lesson till 3.30pm! walked out to school to meet vivien & her boyf! :D hahas, felt so extra can! but thankyou vivien's boyf for treating me to the movie! :D weeeets, watch "dispicable me"! sorry T , cant watch with you tomorrow thats why i watch it today! :D enjoy your show with H tomorrow alright! :D heh, not trying to infer anything! :D heh, homed by 7plus. bathed. watching the 7o'clock show, omg. so scary! liqin is so dam bad! ): arrrghhhh, screwwed his life lah! hmmm, alright. i shall post again tomorrow! :D heh, loves!

you left yet without saying goodbye

you are attached yet you didnt tell me

what are you thinking

i have been tricked by you

you did this ti hurt me didnt you

you just suck totally!

i really did mean by "i love you"

nevermind, i will learn to let go.

last long den! ♥

your drug, my soul

2010-07-14T19:06:00.002+08:00

the sweeteest moment
is when i get to hug you again
like never before!

ARE YOU HAPPY? ~

heyhey, woke up at 6am today! :D weeets, walked to the bus stop with sister. heh, smiley. rained in the morning and had a good sleep! OMG, stupid babygirl sleep for total 2 continous period uh, tsktsk! D: ate recess but had tummy pain! ): stupid lah, freak! so pain lah, sobsob! ): ate pill! went for lesson till 3plus and walked out of school with T & BABYGIRL! ♥. went to dawson with T, Girl went off first! ♥ heh, ate maggi but less den 2 mouth dont want eat. stupid tummy pain came back again! ): i dont like uh, ate T's pill, but useless leh! ): maybe not strong enough! * screwed my pain for life lah! ): wakakaka. )': walked to bus stop with T, saw peiyu, guojun, dalston, and benjamin! :D weeets, hahahas. my bus came and i left. heee, smiley! HAPPY, i didnt bully you ah, T! i very nice de. heh, homed, bathed! currently watching tv, texting and chatting on msn! :D hehe, i am a super busy person! ):
I ♥ YOU, :D

when i first saw you, i fell in love with you
your beautiful eyes, your beautiful smile
your never-ending care
made me fall in love with you even more
i miss you like every seconds now, i guess
DROWN IN YOUR LOVE!

F. OFF

2010-07-13T17:52:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU,L! (L)

heyhey, went to school today late again! thanks to me waking up so late uh! ): wakakak, )': i never seen "L" for like freaking long! ): i miss him, zzz. girl see this she is so gonna kill me! hahas, :D waited at the bus stop for girl, T & D. W was late! :D wakaka, had lesson and everyhting. weeeets, for the first time i did my socialstudies homework! :D wakakak, butbut today mood wasnt as good as previously uh, still the same! still keep eating! *screwed me! I NEED SELF-CONTROL! ): if not my mood will never end and i will never stop eating! FCUK! ): had english exam today, i screwed it up thanks to my mood, maybe to the HOT weather too! freak! but i was happy when i went dawson with girl, D & T! :D smiley, (: maybe because when i am with them i just dont need to think of anything uh, feel so relax with them around! :D i am gonna go swimming with T i think, this saturday! :D wonder if girl wants to go? D: wakakak, bus-ed homed, saw jonathan in 855 but he didnt see me i think! nevermind, super tired, but i want to play basketball! :D tsk! FAT!FAT!FAT! * SCREWED FATS! ): alright, i shall end here! :D weeets, (L)

Crying, silently.
They were concerned.
But where were you?

...when I always needed you?

2010-07-12T17:19:00.007+08:00

I MISS YOU
& I KNOW YOU MISS ME TOO.

MY BABY, D![♥]

HEYHEY! :D weeeets, MONDAY BLUES! (: omg, spain won!!! 1 - 0!!! TSK~ nevermind. girl woke up late!!! ): badbad! meet T & D at the bus stop instead. W was late too! ): everyone so tired today lah!!! ): hmmmm, texttext today! stupid "biscuit" went in too camp already! wakakakka, assembly today. OMG! super hot uh! ): totally wasnt even listening in class lah! :D heh, ops! wasnt on purpose! :D hahas, i keep talking. i am starting to become more talkative uh!!! :D wakakakakaka. ): i think is a bad thing uh! sianz.... had POA lesson for another 30mins uh! wakakaka, i scored 39/40! :D weeeets, i am so happy uh! hahas. homed while talking to ben! weeets, he totally just sucks uh! D: wakakaka, freak lah! whats so nice about pikachu lah! D: tsk! ): stupid, gonna do something now! heh, alright i shall stop here! ♥-s!

sometimes people just dont appreciate the things they have! freak! wakaka, its just wasting your time on them. they just dont see the point of getting to you. they need you they come to you, dont need throw you aside! WTF! they dont even need you to bother about them, they may just think you are a pest to them, my dear! ): i dont want you to get hurt you get it! D: FREAK! they are like treating you like a subsitute, its nothing good to be happy about! D: i dont want this to happen, i dont want see you get hurt! ): it hurts me too! i said so much, yet nothing go in to you! why dont you get my point eh! D: must understand me, i seriously wont hurt you! cause i wont want to see you get hurt, UNDERSTAND!!! hope you do, I ♥ YOU!

your sweetheart

2010-07-11T12:43:00.007+08:00

youyouyou
you are the one that made me whole.

SAY, I LOVE YOU!

HEYHEY! ops, didnt post for a day! somemore is an important day! tsktsk! but i had a great day yesterday! weeets.

YESTERDAY, woke up at 7plus, went bukit batok to study! weeeeheee~ meet xijie at the bus interchange! went study! thanks jinxian and weicong for sending me to the MRT station! :D heh, thankyou! stop at dover and took 147 back! heh, went home, ate steamboat! wakakaka, super full! ): studied, and was bored! texting while studying! (thinking that i would want to get out of my house! D:) ask girl, but she need meet her parents at night, so she couldnt, so sad! OMG lah, thankyou ben for bringing me out! :D heh, ♥-ed! if not i will be like dying of boredness at homed! meet ben at plaza.s bus stop, he came and pick me! weeeets, find his friends! walked around plaza.s, hahas. :D FUNFUN! (: super retarded! alvin and gary came to join me! :D heh, had alot of fun! ben and his friends went off first, left alvin and gary with me! :D heh, stupid gary bully me! tsk! ): sadded. andand ben, thanks for making my day! :D took 175 homed, saw kaijun! OMG, hahahas.! super funny! heh, :D butbut, not forgetting something,
HAPPY 4TH MONTHS GIRL! ♥
thanks for that little baby angel!
she is part of my life now with you now! :D
TODAY, woke up at 10plusplus uh, super sleepy. suppose to go gym but overslept! ): eat and study! heading to bugis later!!! :D gonna meet vivien at bugis too! i need to tell you many many things! :D i bet you would be shocked, i swear! (: alright, post when i am back if i can! :D

EDITED @ 8.38pm:

headed to bugis alone, sister dont want go with me. she want play audition! stupid, audition freak! worse off den me! tsk! hahs, went to find cherlyn and dalston. pass dalstopn his phone, but forgot about the back cover!!! ): sorry! heh, cherlyn dam cute! argh, meet alwin and went macs to eat fries. OMG, fatfatfat! D: eh, vivien came and join us! went iluma, comic connection! got sunny for yunfeng! weeets, i got taemin and taeyeon! ♥-s , HOT! :D heh, head to junction, saw stitch and angel! got 2 angel and a stitch! :D heh, i got many things today! gosh, i bought:
- angel pouch
- angel
- stitch sticker
- taemin sticker
- taeyeon sticker
- sunny sticker
- taemin card
OMG, i buy alot things!!! i think i am sotsot leh! ): am i that stress???!! ): ate pepper lunch, share with vivien! :D heh, walked to seven eleven to get a drink! :D thirsty! ): walked to bus stop, saw alan! :D weeehee~ took 175 homed. weeeets, i shall go pack my bag now! :D
♥, early nights! :D

your love

2010-07-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

with you around,
nothing is impossible!

its all about now, all about you!

HELLOS, today is a friday! weeets, hahas. everyone should know! :D woke up at 6plus today, omg! i left house at 6.35am! wakakaka. ): almost miss my 7am 139! saw weilin at the bus stop! bus to school, waited for girl, T & D! weeets. walked to school. omg, girl gave me an angel for our anniversary! ♥ thankyou very much! OMG, i love it lah! heh, had lesson as usual! ohoh, had fire drill today too! freak, i sat on the wet "grass" ! alamak, but didnt really wet the skirt! heh, smiley! :d went to girl's house after school! omg, saw my god son today! super cute! :D I LOVE YOU uh! omg, girl your son is super cute i swear! he kiss me so many times!!! :D hahahs. ♥-s lah, i miss him! waited for girl to prepare and headed to chinatown to meet weeleng! went ktv after that, sang till 7pm like that. super duper fun! :D weeets, had a nice anniversary uh! goshgosh,
THANKS GIRL! I LOVE YOU TRUCKSLOAD MAN! :D
muacks.! remember what i say in class! i dont want to see you and him again, you UNDERSTAND!!! i dont want you to be hurt!!! ): i dont want see you get hurt too, so you better keep yourself away from getting hurt uh! tsktsk! homed by 7plus, no one home except my ahgong! ): wakakakka, bath-ed! gonna play audition, rest day today! :D weeeeheee~ alright, i shall end here! :D ♥ you peeps.!

i think of you everywhere i go
you just cant seems to disappear from my head
my feelings for you is still the same
i miss you, i want see you
i want your hug again,
i am longing for it.
i dont know what are you thinking
i wish i could read your mind
so i know what's going on.
moodless without you in my life
i swear, L!
(i hope you will see this)

say i love you

2010-07-08T19:05:00.004+08:00

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back to you, its yours forever.
If it dosent, then it was never meant to be.

i love you once, i love you still, i love you forever!

HEYHEY! :D woke up at 5plus today. wakakaka! ): SADDED, GERMANY LOSE YESTERDAY MATCH! ): wakakak! )': heh. started to rain, car to school today. headed straight to class. heh, change for p.e , girl didnt go! she was late ): wakakaka, bad girl! D: heh, had poa after that, met girl outside avt! :D heh, she so cute! had lesson and everything. ohya, physic test today! FREAK! i screwed the test! *screweedddd me!!! had o's level oral today, omg! i was so scared lah. my heartbeat was like freaking fast! ): scary, went for the stem programme thingy! talk to tricia! :D heh, went off at 6pm! wakakakaka, (: with weilun they all! smilesmile! heh, they are so bad lah! freak uh, they dont let me out of the bus! scary uh! D: badbad! sianzzz. took bus to interchange! took 167 from there and was homed! weeets. HAPPY! gosh, i need study alreaedy! freak, mug mug mug! wakakaka, ): andand, i cant wait to go KTV tomorrow! weeeets. alright, post tomorrow den! (L)

i dont want false hope;
i dont wanna be as sad as before.
i need medicine to cure my feelings,
i am so dam CONFUSE now!
i really don't want it to happen again.
i dont feel like being hurt or maybe dont even want to.
i am afraid it will happen again without fail.
cause i know it will be.
no i cant i wont bear to leave you alone with other girls,
who love you too.
i guess i already starting to (L)ove you.
& i swear i do, i cant make myself to STOP.
it will never be TRUE to be together,
but i guess i will just HOLD you tight,
till someone has come into your heart.
(L), More than words can ever describe.
& (You), Nothing can ever replace you.
i miss you, i think 3 days never see you le eh!

L-O-V-E

2010-07-07T17:39:00.005+08:00

Take a breathe i'll pull myself together
just another step until
i reach the low you'll never know the way.

I MISS YOU! ♥

HELLOS. woke up at 5.45am sharp today! :D weeets. finally no need to rush out of house! walked to bus stop and took 961 with sister! (: heh, miss the 6.45am 139 so took 7am bus with weilin! :D reached school bus stop, waited with l.weiling for T and GIRL! :D had lesson! but was kinda still moody! argh, i am still missing you! text in class, super tired! slept in class, weeehee~ 3/4 of the class had oral today! so didnt really have lesson in the afternoon! gosh, finally i know what is going on for chemistry lah! FINALLY UNDERSTAND! :D weeets, happy! wanted to go home because tummy pain. walk cherlyn to 33 bus stopand went to 139 bus stop with jarren! waited for bus, accompany jarren go eat subway! wakakakka, )': first time eat. ok lah, not say that nice but still edible lah! (: hahas, smiley! homed, bathed! argh, i neeed motivation to study again! ): sadded! MUG! MUG! MUG! alright, i shall end here. heh, ♥s!

I know I deserve better after all,
I'll never let another teardrop fall.
We were meant to be,
Supposed to be.

Love begins with a smile,
grows with a kiss,
and ends with a teardrop.

MOODY

2010-07-06T20:29:00.011+08:00

MOODLESS~
i just love you and yet you leave!

HOMED - SCHOOL - TIONG - HOMED! (L)

woke up abit later den usual today! had to rush everything! ): bused to school with my sister but alighted earlier den her! (: saw luvena at the bus stop, she seems so restless too! maybe tired! school was alright, but maybe because many bad things happen lately. everything bad just seems to come upon everyone! D: or maybe only some!
MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY BREAKDOWN!
gosh, screwwedd me up lah! sometimes, we are just not meant to be togeter! text and eat alot today! super sad that i have to stuff myself with food! OMG, thankyou girl and wl for accompanying me today. yippee. i did feel much better uh! :D cant wait for my date with girl this friday! weeehhee~ i shall study now! tomorrow having oral! ): STRESS! jiayou! i can do it de! :D (L)

guys are just another chapter in our life
they are like our story book
creating new chapters everytime

more than a song

2010-07-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

you make me whole,
all to your love!

YOUTH DAY! [♥]

woke up at 9plus. texting while eating breakfast! :D heh, i miss you uh! bored. gosh, i broke the record again! didnt have the mood to go out today! ): i dont know why! FREAK! *SCREWWED ME! argh! butbut, i studied from 11 to 6 today! inbetween have breaks but yes! OMG, i am finally studying lah! YESYES! i am happy although i didnt go out today! i have determination to study today! weeeets. :D went to play basketball with alwin, nicholas, minghui, my sister, kokseng, kenneth and 2 more guys! omg, super cute uh that 2 guys. so small! (: F. i was hit by the ball, but i also hit people with the ball! ): jaypal came to join us for a match! :d he is super funny uh! hahahs. so sorry uh, hit you by accident! homed by 7pm! watch show and ate dinner! I AM GROWING FATTER AND FATTER EACH DAY! andand, someone still owe me a movie uh! :D hehe. alright, i shall stop here. super tired now. my brain cells are like dead! ): tomorrow school andand i get to see my KAREN & T! weehee~ happy, not forgetting DEANNA too! (:
early night peeps. ♥

you made my day moodless
neither replying my text
nor talking to me
i am worried for you
are you alright, my dear?
i miss you...

i am starting to doubt now
are you sure i was the one for you

you can like more than one person at a time

2010-07-04T22:09:00.003+08:00

heyhey, never blog yesterday! came home like super late yesterday! ): drop dead tired lah! :D
YESTERDAY,went out at 2plus, took 147 all the way to clemnti to meet L, and took 147 all the way back to clark quay! ): argh, super long journey! ): i felt so comfortable in your warmth! i could almost fall alseep uh! walk to padang area, drizzling uh! ): sadded. L and his friend left! thank God T came to accompany me! (: watch NDP in the rain, had tickets thanks to kangjun! weehee~ happy happy! the NDP was cool. i love the parts where there is tanks and jets! :D gosh, super nice!!! i want to sit in the tank! hahas, (: went marina after that. met L again! went to eat! omg, didnt finish my food! ): i dont know why, maybe no appitite bah! walk to esplanade to take 961, waited for like super long, but there aint any sight of bus! so walked back to cityhall MRT station! T went off by mrt, left me and L. bus homed with L, slept for awhile in his "cradle"! gosh, super comfortable! (: bus came and L went off. homed, bath and sleep! (:
TODAY, woke up at 9plus. stupid aunty wake me up! wakakakak, ate mushroom soup for breakfast! weets, super nice! hahas, studied chinese for awhile! had CGM at my house! left at around 1plus to bugis! headed for tuition! ended at 3.30pm! vivien and deanna was waiting for me! went to junction to withdraw money! ate mac spicy! weehee~ i tried to force myself to finish the burger! wahahahah! waited for sister, send deanna to her daddy! walked to iluma(i think i spell correctly!) hahas, went M1 shop with vivien, and got an angel for myself! OMG, the angel is super cute! :D hehe. bus-ed to tiong! freak, there is this stupid biantai in the bus beside vivien! keep looking at us! told vivien to stand up and that guy move closer to me! freak freak freak! super scary! ): I AM SUPER SCARED! his hand was like an inch away from my lap! gosh, argh! felt like crying! watch eclipse today with sister, alwin, alvin and gary!

super nice alright! OMG, i got freak out a some parts, thanks to the sound effect! tsktsk! ): sobsob! went kopitiam to eat. they eat, but not me. wasnt that hungry at that time! D: i dunno why. i just felt not right at that time! walked home! bathed. gonna do my usual things before i go to sleep, or maybe not sleep! :D alright, shall end here. nights peeps! ♥
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i dont know how to tell you how i feel now
i dont know how to explain it out
i just felt not right
idk! idk! idk!
i cant comfirm that i feel secure with you
your heart just doesnt seems to belongs to me
i dont know, butbut i know that &
i swear that you are super cute
i want to sleep in your "cradle" again.
i felt so warmth and love in there!
i want to feel that again.
i want it like now!
i am craving for it more and more.
i dont want to think anymore,
i just want to stop everything and
go into your little "Cradle" and sleep!
lastly, i want you to know that,
i ♥ you!

you made me fall for you

2010-07-02T19:48:00.002+08:00

"First, learn to accept it.
Then learn to face it.
Then learn to let it go."

weehee, finally you are back! :D HAPPY! wanted to head to changi today, butbut... you came back earlier den we had tot you would uh! ): if not can give you suprise! alamak. headed to vivo instead. studied while waiting for "someone" to come! (: heh. (L) gosh, i miss you like freak uh!!! walked around, went bus stop after you eat. your bus came first and you left! ): hahas, but nevermind. i will get to see you tomorrow! (: yippeee... homed at 7.30pm! :D heh, talk to T on the way home uh! (: thankyou lah, hahas! (: i am tired! ): but i am still waiting for your call! faster call, i want hear your voice!!!??? D: heh, smiley. alright, i shall end this post here! (: heh...
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T,
i think i am starting to fall for him! argh, but i am afraid!!! ): cannot, i haven totally fully give up on him! ): HOW? HOW? i am afraid it wont last! D: i am afraid! i am tired of feeling hurt! D: fcuk! ):

Everything happend for a reason.
If you are the one, you were be the one.
Making myself not to think too much.
Making myself to be much happier than each day.

L-O-V-E-E-E

2010-07-01T18:48:00.005+08:00

my heart,
can never comprehend!

"is all about you, my dear!"

HEYHEY! it sucks to miss just two days of lesson when O's are like getting super close now! ): i seriously dont understand a single thing whatever my chemistry teacher is teaching! ARGH, why must i fall sick!!! ): *screwwedd me! tsktsk! HOW? HOW? how am i gonna catch up with the rest?! D: WAKAKAKAKAS, SOBSOB! )':
went school today, yyippee... rain-ed in the morning. phew, thank god i didnt miss my bus allthough i woke up super late! (: heh, met luvena at the bus stop ! (: took 139 with her! reach school bus stop, meet weiling there. waited for karen and t! :D hehe, super long. talk to weiling while waiting for them. had p.e for the first period! WEEHEE~ I GREW TALLER BY 2CM! (: *happy to the max! :D went library after that, "studied!" went back to class. had lesson, did have breaks in between! (: stayed back in school for awhile to eat! :d gosh, my first meal was like at 4pm! POWER! :D hahahs, bus with wanzhen! talk to her, so much fun! alighted, transfer bus. super tired when i got homed! hahas, but nevermind! :d i still need chiong my homework! weehee~ i need motivation! i need to study! i must stop playing, O's are near! *screwwed me! STUDY! ): gonna go airport tomorrow! :D cant wait for it, i miss airport! :)
so do i miss you alot! ):
i shall end here now! alrights! ♥
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i have somethings i want to say to :

DEANNA TOO DAO XIN,
thankyou for really being part of my life. i really appreciate it. although i dont really show you much care and concern now and then, i am sorry. i really dont wish that you would be the middle person. i know how hard a middle person could feel. cause i was once a middle person. the feeling just totally suck. i was really happy when you talk to me, but i am sorry that i really did make you feel like i was angry with you. * screwwed me! i am really sorry alright! i really am just down this days, i just need time to chill! although i may look strong on the outside to you, sometimes i am not. i seriously may just fall anytime i want. i have many things in mind. be it you, be it my sister, be it my school life, be it my family, or my personal life. i really am trying to cope with everything now! ): just missing two days of school, i dont even know what the hell the teacher talking! ): argh, i just hate school now! ): i am afraid i cant catch uh with whatever i need to! ): deanna, i am real sorry! since you ask me to give "him" a chance, why not you??? he waited for you super long eh. dont make him wait to long. you both will last alright! (: I PROMISE! he wont dare to bully you de, he is super sweet! try things out with him, he is really trustable. I BELIEVE! and moreover it maybe a good time to bring him back to church once again! :D think about it, think about how long he had a crush on you. he is truely faithful to you.
IT HAS BEEN PROVEN MY DEAR!
i really need you to trust me, seriously! :D i hope you will. his love life depends on you to continue! i love you too, more than you love me!! HAHAS.!
my sweetest husband! [♥]

CHERLYN CHUA JIN YAN,
yoyo. i promise to blog about you. although i have been in the same class as you for more than 2 years i guess! i really enjoyed it. hahas, you are super cute i swear! (: althoug we dont really talk much, but whenever i talk to you. i feel like you already know loads of my stuff. i mean like, i felt so close with you. :D still remebering every donation thingy day , no matter where were we, we will always end up together! so cool lah,, gosh! i love you alright. if you got anything, text me. i will also be there for you de! like you are there for me too! JIAYOU FOR YOUR O'S! (:
I LOVE YOU , C![♥]

KAREN LAI JIA LUN,
i really really deeply appreciate you for always being there for me without fail! SERIOUSLY! :D i mean like you totally know what i am thinking, what i feel like doing and everything. i mean yeah! serious, OMG! you are really super great to me! you always know when i feel down and everything. always the first one to encourage me most of the time. mostly making me smile. i mean, WOW! where to find such a great friend like you! :d i feel so blessed that i have you as a friend, close friend indeed! GOODNESS! you totally just rule my life uh. i dunno what will happen if i dunno you. always there to listen to me and everything! maybe there will be deanna or t or maybe others will be there for me! maybe they will be the other one that i will be with, to share my fun and unhappy-ness? although now things happen between you and her. i believe she will understand it one day? and will return to you as your bestfriend! i may not be able to replace her, but i want you to know. without her, you still have me and only me! (: maybe not, still have.... errrr. i think i shouldnt say! hehe. (: LOVE YOU TO THE MAX UH! :D study hard too yeah, miss you .
I LOVE YOU GIRL! [♥]

not forgetting about you , T....
T,
although i was only starting to get close to you since the beginning of this year, but i never regretted it uh! i really thankyou for also being part of my life. really! youyouyou, did made a big impact in my life, greatly i swear. hmmm, although most of the times you may be with your boyfriend. but yet, you also did spent time with us. you are improving in every area greatly. jiayou jiayou. we shall strive hard for O's alright. you were there to comfort me the past few days without fail. OMG, thankyou . big big thanks alright! i will really listen to what you told me just, not long ago! i will do it, i believe i can do it too!(:
I LOVE YOU![♥]

FCUK

2010-06-30T10:49:00.005+08:00

wonder would you suffer there,
i hope you won't.

the truth are mean to be kept!

HELLOS, didnt go to school today, but heading to school to collect homework later. gonna meet t and karen! :D heh, thankyou for being there to support me when i fall! i love you guys, i really dont know what will happen if i didnt have you peeps. hahas, you know what. that stupid lawrence told me he will be back in 10days, freak! until now also haven come back! i want my gift!!! ): BADBAD! someone once told me that " if you love the person, you dont need him to be by your side, you just want him to be happy thats it. if he dont appreciate it, that is it, no point shedding tears for him, he may take it as crocodile tears. " GOSH, i totally agree with this sentence! i cant remember whose that person who told me but BIG THANKYOU to you! sometimes, people just dunno how to appreciate things that are right infront of them lah. have they ever thought what was the reason that they once lose them and den get it back. for godsake uh, by luck? of course not, how can they be lucky at all times.? wth lah, they didnt think even think of the reason, or anything uh! HOPELESS CREATURES! karen and t, i need you ! )': i cant stand living here anymore! FCUK, FML lah! I HATE IT WHEN I WASNT IN THE WRONG FROM THE START, YET I WAS TO BE BLAME FOR IT! )': i have alot of things in mind now, i am gonna break down anytime. i cant hold on any longer, i cant breathe! D: you both said the same thing when i ask whether i was dumb, to even say i wont be angry! i really dunno if i did the right thing now, people just dont appreciate it lah.
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bet you must be dam fcuking happy to see me in this state. whatever i promise, i promise. since if you do not trust me, what is the point of starting the conversation. i dont get it, dont trust den dont say lah. i mean i believe totally that i did nothing wrong, hellos. get your facts right hao bu hao? i trust that i aint in the wrong. you wont together with him , so others could get a chance to get to him right? moreover he is willing what. this isnt a fairytale, it was just reality that you didnt wanted to face it. i created my own fairytale that it, i dont care whether you think its a fairytale and want me to wake up from it. but sad to say, i am already awake. to you is just a dream, but not for me. i know what am i doing, as you said "i dont need you to teach me", same goes to you and i dont even care what you want your life to be in future,i dont give a dam to it can. its your life eh, i also dont want. and which girl would ever want to be the third party? i clarify with him everything before i was like even safe to be with him. cause i dont want to be a third party, you get it? if i knew i was the third party, i would even get to him. can you please understand! i have never treated you as an enemy before lor, please. i didnt even had that tought in mind, dont believe i cant do anything.! really lah, sort out whatever you had first before saying anything.

*fyi, i am not here to create troubles. SEROUSLY, i just dont want to get scolded for nothing. if you were me, i bet you also wont want to be scolded for nothing right. both of us are girls, i totally understand what you feel! maybe you wont give a dam about it, cause you feel happy that i am in this situation. if next time this happens again, dont blame anyone about it alright, you deserve it! ANDAND, only a bitch will take to know a bitch! so stop calling me, because i know you wont want to be it!
(if i have any spelling mistakes, grammer errors or anything, i am sorry. my english aint better den you! )

loving someone

is to let them be happy

my way, your way

2010-06-29T15:39:00.003+08:00

your eyes put the city lights to shine

didnt get to school today, went to the doctor.! i have a 2 days mc! i think i wont be going tomorrow too! )': wonder what homework are there. gosh, i miss chem practical! FCUK! )': argh. things changes just after a blink! ): i am tired, i will blog a longer post soon! LOVES.! (:

*screwed me!

what am i suppose to do now?!

Your faith walks on broken glass

2010-06-28T16:21:00.005+08:00

Let me know you'll keep in touch,
If you don't it'll hurt too much.

cause is you that i love!

I wish i could put my thoughts into words in a more appropriate/specific way, wishing that i had english of a higher standard so i could tell pin down exactly how i feel now. nevermind!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

weehhee~ funfun. woke up at 6plus, (L) woke me up! weehee!! thankyou! (: took same bus as my sister, alighted and guess who i saw! i saw LUVENA! woohoo~ long time no see lah, miss her. wait for karen and friends, saw weiling, went to find her and talk to her!(: walked to school with them. had lesson, but i slept awhile after karen went home! ): i wonder how is she feeling now? hope someone is taking care of her! alamak, super tired. ): had assembly, super boring! ARGH, almost fell asleep. heh, told stupid jokes, weilun say it was super lame.! WAKAKAKAS, so funny lah! (: homed with jarren. took 139, but didnt stop at the interchange! hahas, super funny!
V:this guy is retarded, he wear like so much accesories to school.!!! WTF!!!
J:really meh? seesee!!! wah, retarded as you say!
V:and they are freaking vuglar!!! ): so scary!
J:yeah lo.
V:worse than dalston sia.
J:lols.
homed, bathed. wondering should i go to the doctor? ): HOWHOW? i am stuck! freakkkkkk!*Screwweddddd me! ):

Lastly, i want to say that ...
I ♥ YOU!
Xiaoqiang, i swear you are freaking cute! (:

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i want to feel okay.
i want to feel important to you.
i want to feel like you care about me as much as i care about you.
i want to be right and not have you resent me for it.
i want to to talk to you.
i want to tell you everything and not be afraid of your judgement.
i want to believe you.
i want to trust you.
i want to know where i stand.
i want to laugh with you.
i want to stop crying over you.
i want to have great nights and better days.
i want to be a part of your dreams.
i want you to be a part of mine, although its the truth.
i want to know you are interested.
i want you to initiate conversation.
i want you to see.
i want you to feel.
i want you to know.
i want to want you, and i want you to want me too.
yet everything in my life just turn upside down in a minute.
but (L) isnt answering my call nor text!
): whats going on? i am super confuse?!
i dont want to think, shhhh....
vivian you need to calm down and stop your freaking imagination away!
or else you will hurt more!
calm, calm! D:

I DONT WANT GO TO THE DOCTOR! I DONT CARE. )':

Sometimes,
i wish that my eyes would already dried out from tears,
even if it was meant to be blind.
so that i could already stop crying..

Cause everytime i cry ..
i feel my heart hollows inside me,
like even a intake of breath,isnt enough to take another beat..

its okay to cry ,
but if its too much,
its just wont stop ..

its not easy ..
never was..

XOXO

2010-06-27T20:20:00.009+08:00

It's a supernatural delight,
Everybody's dancing in the moonlight.

BROTHER!

I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY...
HAPPY BIRHTDAY KOK SENG!

today's recovery rate : 0% , WTH!!!
nevermind, i got a super sexy voice now! HAHAS.
Last day of holidays, FREAK! time passes like super duper fast lah. wakakaka ): sadded! went bugis walk around with mummy and sister. weehee~ super giddy lah, went find miner at her shop! weehee~ cool, nice lah! maybe is because my medicine causes the problem of my giddy-ness! didnt really shop for anything. thanks to my super bad flu i use 1 box of tissue !!! ASS lah! *screww-edd! home-d early today, wakakaka. suck lah! so bored. i dont want to care, i dont want to care about anything! i want to smile, like before.! i just feel like dying now!! * suck to the max! alwin at my house now! weehee~ playing poker!!!! (: my sister singing song!wahahahahahhaha, so funny! (: hmmm, i shall end here and start concentrating on the game !!! (: HAHAS. (L)

i have something to sayy ... ...

i want to tell you that... ...
I LOVE YOU, &
if you were the tears inside my eyes,
i would never want to cry.
because i dont want to lose you.
heh, andand i haven get to pinch you today!
because i didnt even get to see you
argh, i miss you loads!
although when school starts we mayy see each other seldom
butbut i will still love you as i always do!
youyouyou, are the one and only one!♥

I would wanna be right where you are,
If I could wish upon a star.
We're together,
And that's forever.

higher then the heavens

2010-06-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

DROP DEAD SICK!

heyhey, my eyelids are like half way close. its starting to twitch now! ): but who cares! weehee~ but i am seriously not tired, stupid medicine makes me sleepy! woohoo, i sotsot leh! heh, i dont know what am i thinking. i just hope one day i could really be "blind"! SERIOUSLY, gosh. i am having flu, cough, and sore throat! wakakakakakka! ): fever will be next! D: school re-opening in 2days time! cant wait for school to start! get to see all my classmates again! (: heh! heading to bugis tomorrow with mummy!

nights babes & hunks! (L)

jealousy isnt really my policy

although it may hurt sometimes

but i will never show it out

its hard to guess though

even if i were to get jealous

i swear & i promise that you would be the last to know

or may not even let you know

JEALOUSY = HURT

I WANT YOU ALONE

2010-06-25T23:55:00.004+08:00

sometimes is hard not to think
what is right infront of you
although you dont know a single thing about it!

you gave me strength to continue walking on!

I SWEAR I AM GONNA FALL SICK SOON! ):

HEYHEY, dont feel like posting much today! D: maybe before maybe after school re-open! ): time passes so fast! ): today, i made an improvement ! weehee~ i did manage not to think about anything else, not to let my mind be drifted away! i have a super good imagination, which i hate it! ARGH! *PISSED.! stupid! i want to take this freaking great imagination thingy away! i dont want to imagine, i dont want to think what i dont feel like it! it causes many many problems! i am afraid , i am afraid of things that aint what i imagine. maybe things are not that worse than i imagine it. maybe you were right, but i still cant accept it! D: my imagination is turning me crazy!!! D:

How can everything feel so right when it's in actual fact, wrong? HOW? HOW? things are like crystal clear! yet, i still feel it the other way! but at least i know i still have you ♥ !

No more fairytale pretending,
I'll make my own happy ending.

2010-06-24T11:53:00.004+08:00

life is like a coin
you can spend it anyway you want but only once!

hellos, sorry for not posting yesterday! super no mood uh! ): i have been thinking alot this few dayys! time passes so fast and its gonna be the end of school holidays! D: sadded, uh! i have yet to thank someone that i always wanted to thank. but i dont think its the right time now! ): life seems so screwed without you, are you really meant to be with me? D: i hope you made the right choice ! ): everyone in life do make the wrong choice, but i am sure i wont regret because i feel comfortable and happy with you! (:

how i wish i was blinded
so that i wont be able to see
those things which hurts me
i heard it once and i saw it once
are you really true to me
or is it just another fairytale for me to dream again

edited @ 9:43pm:

YOU GAVE ME STRENGTH!

heyhey! went tiong to eat at around 6plus! weehee~ had family dinner ! (: SUPER DUPER FILLING LAH! gosh, i miss you! i totally didnt get to see you today eh!!!! )': HOW??!! argh, miss die you uh!!! i want to see you!!! walked homed, execrised! (: heh, hao lah. i am tired! gonna use fb!!! (: (L)

nights peeps.!♥

2010-06-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

♥
Missing someone gets easier everyday
because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them,
you are one day closer to the next time you will.
Words are just not enough to tell you how much you mean to me
and how much I need you by my side, all my life.
You have touched my life in ways
that others can't even think of.
ily & imy.

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay
I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes
But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
(:

They can take the music that we'll never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
But they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away
They can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever
But it wasn't our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time
But I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strength in the moments we made
I'm looking back on yesterday

I WILL REMEMBER!

2010-06-21T21:33:00.012+08:00

YOUR LOVE MAKES ME STRONGER! (:

heyhey, super duper lazy to post! hmmm, i am the NUMBER ONE SUPER LAZY PERSON ON EARTH! (: but i am super bored now! stupid computer lah, so lag!

HOMED - VIVO - SENTOSA - VIVO - HOMED!

i have somthing i want to say

is that "i love you"!

but i am afraid

or maybe just scared that

it will just become a fairytale again!

should i continue to love you? ):

i dont want false hope;
i am so dam CONFUSE now!
i'm afraid of being in a relationship now.
i dont feel like being hurt or maybe dont even want to.
i am afraid it will happen again without fail.
cause i know it will be.
no i cant i wont bear to leave you alone with other girls,
who love you too.
i guess i already starting to (L)ove you.
& i swear i do, i cant make myself to STOP.
it will never be TRUE to be together,
but i guess i will just HOLD you tight,
till someone has come into your heart.
(L), More than words can ever describe.
& (You), Nothing can ever replace you.
I LOVE YOU & I MISS YOU terribly.

i love you, one and only one! [♥]

LOVE CRUCIFIED THE MAN!

2010-06-20T10:10:00.004+08:00

taeyeon! (L)

hellos, currently at homed now, help my sister and vivien to sing while they practice their guitar!!! woohoo~ waiting for w481 cellgroup meeting , excited! (: weehee * HAPPY! heading to bugis later for tuition! ): wakakakaka, tuition start le. sadded )': vivien coming with my sister to find me later! GOODGOOD! (: maybe can heart to heart talk with her! (: (L)
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you are cute

seriously!

Raining let the dust and vapour disperse the memory,
I quietly lean against you,
Looking at you,
looking at those mottled sweetness,
Love you but trap you and trap myself too.

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phew, just bathed! (: i smell nice! HAHAHS. cellgroup was great, left at 1pm for tuition. after tuition , kangjun and vivien came to find me! THANKSTHANKS. waited for my sister and talk to wenjie! (: gosh, we are like talking craps through msn lah! (: FUNNY! (: sister came left after she ate her shaker fries to jalan menbina to eat! i didnt eat, wasnt really that hungry uh! meet minghui and alwin there! jonathan, kok seng, and 2 more guys came along! (: LOLS, had laughter, quietness, and sleepyness there. alamak, said alot of lame jokes uh! (: I ROCK BIG TIME! (: walked to basket ball court and play! join them, plaed full court for 2 rounds uh! (: woohoo~ i am tall! i grew taller! happyhappy! *VIVIAN IS SUPER HAPPY! homed, currently blogging and talking on msn! hmmm, i shall end here! (L)

LALALALA~

2010-06-19T19:19:00.002+08:00

HAPPY DADDY'S DAY! ♥

hellos, currently at church posting! (: weehee~ woke up at 8plusplus! heh, study! (: finally getting to study mood!!! alamak, meet shanika at my house downstair. went tiong popular to get some stuff! (:meet jean and deanna there! left tiong and went to church at 2.30pm! ops, cool lah, wasnt late! saw wendy at the bus stop! headed to church! (: service was great! WOOHOO! LOVE THE PRESENCE OF GOD WAS THERE! :d went to meet pastor zhuang with the cell group! (: heh, came to level four after that! (: ate! gonna play audi! weehee~ (L)
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2010-06-18T17:05:00.000+08:00

HOMED ~ COUSIN HOUSE ~ HOMED!

love stronger than the fear before me

2010-06-17T17:35:00.002+08:00

What's love to you?
A poison or an antidote?

HEYHEY, woke up at 9plus today. woohoo~ first time during holidays! woke up but to play audition! (: heh, alwin came over with his computer so that my sister can play! heh, my dearest baobei came over also after awhile! actually not awhile, maybe one hour! (: ops, bathed and went out with finn! suppose to find brian , her kor for the KBOX card but, instead went to chinatown and apply for the card! (: ate at macs, while waiting for baobei's friend ,alwin and my sister! (: SING KBOX! woohoo~ super duper fun, homed. saw ahma at the bus stop! heh, sadded. cant go for cellgroup! but next week i must go! tsk, hack care leh! post again tomorrow den! (L)

GIRL, DONT BE UNHAPPY ALRIGHT! (:

LALALALA

2010-06-16T14:06:00.005+08:00

I LOVE YOU!

hellos, weehee~ although didnt go anywhere today, but still had loads of fun! (: woohoo~ audition, here i come! (: studied today, going ktv tml! weehee~

I AM GONNA BE A DISOBEDIENT CHILD FOR TML!

all i ever want

2010-06-15T22:20:00.003+08:00

DEAREST BAOBEI!♥

HELLOS, kinda dont feel like posting this few days, i dunno why. ARGH! stupid me, suddenly addicted to audition uh! ): sucks lah! I NEED PERSERVERANCE NOW! i need to have it! argh, i need to start studying uh! ): nevermind, study! study! study! mug! mug! mug! wakakaka, ): nevermind, woke up at 10.30am! very big thanks to my sister, if not finn have to wait for me. heh, actually is she called my sister to wake me up, alamak. still the same. heh, ops, sorry! went tiong study at burger king, then went to level 6 to camhore! weehee~ miss camhoring, wakakaka. HAHAS, meet alwin and huishan at level 2 escalator! eating rajhar inn! (i think i spell correctly?) hmmm, ate tom yam! woohoo, very filling! went "walk around" ! cab to alwin house, play audition with sister, went homed. bathed, watched tv, study! woohoo~ i need to study more and more!
BUT I MISS MY EYECANDY! ♥

how i wish....
everything bad now to all pastors can stop!
keep you pastors in prayer!

2010-06-14T18:34:00.000+08:00

HOMED - COUSIN HOUSE - HOMED!

2010-06-13T15:20:00.002+08:00

booobooo! my cousins beside me, hahas. (: so boring! suppose to go tiong to meet finn and her friend to study. but can't, nevermind had a great laugh just now! (: STUPID VIDEO! ): wakakaka, you peeps should watch it! (: post again soon!

MUST WATCH HOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

loving you ass

2010-06-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

♥
i must have determination and faith!

HEYHEY! (: Woke up at 5plus today, stupid phone call! talk on phone and text. went out of house at like 7.54am but suppose to meet at 8.15am at commonwealth! wakaka, SUPER LATE! )': cab down with sister to commonwealth, took mrt to chua chu kang! phew, it's like freaking far! but nevermind, went cheers! but only get a plain water for sister, sat at macs till 9am, bought harshbrown and went to take bus 307 to the place! woohoo~ the teaecher was early today, but teacher crystal wasnt there! ): wakaka, she at another bus stop, but will pick her up! YIPPEE! had children church service, slack at rooftop with two super small kid! (: heh, super cute! *pinch! had service after that, one word to say about the service! IT'S AWESOME! (: okay, maybe not one word! (: heh, ops.! pastor phil pringle was like GREAT! (: WOOHOO~ left right after the message was preach, headed to vivo city! suppose to reach there by 6.10pm, but was 5minutes late! watch show with my cousin! weehee~

"THE KARATE KID"! GOSH, i also want learn! (: hahas, i teared during the show, so touching. awwww, )': sadded, sobsob!the small guy with plaited hair is like so cute! (: hahas, (:watching the show can get to learn many many things ! (: perserverance, determination and " learning kungfu is not to fight, but to protect yourself! " (: woohoo, nice quote! ahahas, new show coming up which is nice! weehee~ gonna watch it! homed. currently twitting! (: heh. should i go join finn and her friend tomorrow at tiong? argh! DECIDING IN PROGRESS! (:

2010-06-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

♥

beautiful, dirty, rich

unfailing love, so unreserve!

PEEK-A-BOO! (: weehee~ today was great as i tot it would be! went out of home at 10am! phew, i was earlier then joseph! wakaka, HAPPY! (: accompany him to the dental at NUS (if i never remember wrongly)! after that headed to changi airport, went MCDONALDS to buy food! *HUNGRY HUNGRY! A HUNGRY PERSON IS AN ANGRY PERSON! (: heh, went to the 2nd level at terminal 2, some changi gallery for us to look at the plane and other thing! sat there eating and studying while waiting for my sister to come! (: HAHAS, LOLS. played with a little boy there, gosh. he is super small and super cute! (: i want to adapot him! ROFL, if i can! (: sister came, use computer . played! :D saw karuna there, super cool lah! went off to burger king after awhile, while joseph headed to chinatown! (: HEH, ate onion rings and fries! daddy called, and headed back home! ): bathed and gonna study! watching movie tomorrow! (: HAPPYHAPPY! :D post again tomorrow! (L)

lets put our hearts together as one

2010-06-10T23:35:00.007+08:00

THE AWESOME FOUR!

HAVE A SAFE TRIP TOMORROW! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERLYN!

weehee~ hope you have an enjoyable birthday alright

LOVEYOU!

hellos, kinda like super late now. few more minutes to 12 midnight! weehee(: shall not post much today. hmmm, i had a great prayer meeting and a great night-out today! (: hope your have a great day too. tomorrow will be a better day, OF COURSE! (: heaeding to airport tomorrow! (: heh, study study study! but gonna bring lappy there! (: in any case i am gonna be bored! (: hahas. post tomorrow den! (: LOVES, NIGHTS PEEPS. SWEET DREAMS! ♥

PIG!

2010-06-09T09:35:00.003+08:00

JINGYI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you are a pig! ):

woke up at 7plus, wanted to head to school for awhile. but lazy! ): hahas, suppose to meet jingyi at 9am, but she haven wake up! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): sadded, shall post again soon! ):

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booboo! back to posting! (: hehe, went to meet jingyi at her house area . my sister brought me there although i know how to go! went swiming with her till like 1plus den went bugis! took 145 there. hahas, it was raining. PHEW! Thank God we left earlier! (: buahahahs, saw yinghui at the bugis bus stop! heh, she waiting for girl! (: heh, had that mindset that i will get to see them later! shop around while waiting for finn, shanika and deanna to come! walked many many times. bought dress but cant find shoes. yinghui use girl phone to call me! i didnt know it was yinghui until she told me! GOSH, they sound alike?! (EXCATLY!) seriously no different i swear! (: anyway, thank God i had my life--savers.! (: girl and yinghui! phew, went around bugis helping me to find jingyi shoes. deanna came, and i got my pair of school after that! heh, nice nice. (: LOVE IT alot! (: finn came while deanna, me and jingyi were eating LONG JOHN SILVER! wakaka. full! ): shanika came awhile later. got a high waist short with deanna! (: super nice. choose clothes for shanika and went to bugis junction to eat MOS BURGER! i didnt eat, but took photos. only finn and shanika ate! heh. homed with shanika, saw yanling! (: heh. studied awhile, currently talking on msn! heh. (:

STUPID DINOSAUR! tsk! so BHB can, think everything i talking refer to you! argh! but seriously not uh. heh, and i didnt get drown today okay! DUMBASS! tsk, letter V is the best! (: SMILE!

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-08T18:14:00.003+08:00

HELLOS, ahahas. i am at CHANGI AIRPORT! weehee~ but i am not flying to other country for holidays! (: hahas. i waiting for my dearest little cousin with my sister. practically almost my whole family came to pick him lah! LOLS. (: woke up at 10 plusplus today. bathed and out to meet finn'baobei! gosh, i was early. suprise uh! somemore raining ^^ heh, went KFC to study, and eat at the same time! buhahahas, saw dawn and rachel! gosh, super long never see them! I MISS YOUR! :D studied, edit photos. ahahs, super fun. (: saaw jiawei after that. went arcade to play basket ball with my sister, finn and her "kor". super fun, but hand tired uh! )': SADDED. went macs to use the wireless internet thingy! (: played for super long!! :D hahas. trained to changi airport with my sister! currently waiting for my family to reach weehee! post tomorrow! hahahs, cant wait to go swimming tomorrow! (: (L)

P-E-R-H-A-P-S!

2010-06-07T09:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIENTAN!
hope you will enjoy your birthday today.
cause its your birthday alright.
sorry can celebrate with you due to school.
but i hope you would really enjoy it.
may all your wishes come true and do well for your upcoming exams!

MORNING PEEPS. (: just woke up. argh! tsk! heading to my cousin house later, den go to school. weehee~ wakaakaka (: going to KTV at chinatown with sister, alvin and gary! (: HAHAHAHAHS. (:

When someone you secretly Love text you,
you would feel shock and happy.
But when you text me I teared!
Because I was about to give up and you Text!
although I know everything is just a false hope!

edited at 11.21pm:
walk to school from cousin house at 1. bought bubble tea for girl! (: heh, HOT SUN uh, super duper hot! but nevermind. meet girl at bus stop or maybe halfway! hahas, gosh. her eyes are like swallon. stupid dumbdumb, you shouldnt have rub like so hard! ): see lah, now injured le uh! )): sort of injured but still red! ): wakaka. dont sad le girl, you still have me! you can find someone way way way better den you alright. although i know i may be stupid at sometimes but i totally understand your feeling about this. your smile makes people around you smile too! so you must smile more often alright. dont say no my dear, at least give it a try! love you! (: HAHAS, LOLS. had physic lesson till 3pm. walked out of school and headed to bus stop to wait for bus 33. ): wakakak, bus-ed to lucky chinatown! super duper hot uh. cannot tahan! tsk, meet kenneth outside the KTV room! weehee~ went in. gosh, super cold. SING SING SING! many many different songs. found new singing partner! hahas, (: LOLS, super high uh! sang till 6plus. walked to hawker centre to eat! yummy! FULL! i ate chicken rice, gosh. super full! ask many many lame jokes. hahahs. super cool plus funny. letting them guess and laugh at them. although i know i am bad! tsk, sorry uh! but their reactions i swear is like freaking funny plus cute uh! heading to tiong tomorrow to meet finn , maybe with sister too! after that going to changi airport to find my cousin! (: SMILEY. post again tomorrow! BYES, NIGHTS PEEPS. (L)

time to move on girl! (: